a journey..being me..

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2012-01-14T02:58:00.000-08:00

nang rasa nak ngeraong..

Jessie J - Without You

I'm not a little girlSo promise you won't hide itRaw as it comesOh don't you try to disguise it
Reality is crashing itAnd it hits me like broken glassIt's like my entire lifeJust got really really fast
Like a melting cloudI cry out for you yeahLike an empty roomI'll be missing youYeah
We've got so much more to liveWe've got so much more to doLife won't be the same without you oh ohhhohWe've got so much more to laughWe've got so much more to loseLife won't be the same without you ohhh
Oh oh no
No No No
Staring at the darkI'm the only one awakeTrying to control my tearsBut this is stupid hard to takeClutching on to youWhile you're slipping through my handsI wanna see the good in thisBut it just doesn't make any sense ohh
Like a bird that never flewI'll cry out for youLike a rose that never grewI'll be missing you
We've got so much more to liveWe've got so much more to doLife won't be the same without you oh ohhhWe've got so much more to laughWe've got so much more to loseNo my life won't be the same without you ooh
I wish we'd spent more time togetherI should have come to see you moreWish i'd have learned what you lovedWhat you hated, what you likedAnd the things you adoreAnd now I'm here trying to fill the spaceThat once was framed by your faceAnd … when you goneAll I have is this so-oooh-ong
We've got so much more to liveWe've got so much more to loseLife won't be the same without you yeaahWe've got so much more to laughWe've got so much more to loseNo my life won't be the same without you

..n ther's a story of $$

2012-01-05T04:11:00.001-08:00

i make a reasonable amount of money..an amount that is enough to feed my family and keep my stomach full..i have certain plan to modified my house..but to do that, i still have to save..not in 1 or two days but in a reasonable amount of months..

so when somebody said u should have this u should have that in my house and expect me to buy it there n then, when i am in good mood, i would just say yes to satisfy them..but when they caught me at the wrong time would say i cant for the moment (maseh juak sopan nak?) but then they have to push the button a lil bit further.......

lalu keluarlah ayat, "aih..lewat juak sik dapat meli..maka gaji besar"

apa gik aku dipadah kedak ya, dengan nada sopan ku nyebut, "aok..yalah..nang mena gaji kmk besar, tp nyawa kmk gik nok melanja nya..pegi cya ctok..ngabis duit kedirik..enjoy bena2 bah.."

....baruk ko tauk nok diam nak..

..life..

2012-01-03T02:57:00.000-08:00

having said all the things nk d debah tok..i juz wanna add..there is more to life..being happy..be with people whom you love..family, frens, the special one..that is more important..being able to live..breathe..alhamdulillah ya Allah..atas nikmat semua tok..sangat bersyukur..

..i love my country..

2012-01-03T02:05:00.000-08:00

tolonglah..mana2 ktkorg nk gik masih uni ya..g lah belajar dolok..iboh gago nak bekempen politik cya ctok..tauk sik negara kta tok patutnya aman bah..like what me and a fren's discussion from before, duak2 setuju..pembangkang ya penting tp boleh sik mun ko pembangkang iboh sekadar nak membangkang jak..boleh sik syuko at lis kita tok sik miskin..mun gik tiap bulan boleh makan..n bukan takat boleh makan malah leh sekali sekala makan mewah, beduit lah kita tok..iboh gago nak kempen cya ctok..boleh sik..aku nangga kebanyakan org nak voice out "pendapat" cdak nak cara pellek2 ya eh semadi nak madah diriknya pembangkang..coba kuberik ko jadi pemimpin, macam sial juak olah kau..aku mula2 not to say ok ngan benda tok..tapi juz aku rasa a bunch of immature kids trying to have fun with toys they have..and it started to hit me when a fren posted a super kurang ajar cerik bes video..ney jak adab ko..sik tauk ku eh..mun aku sik begaol ngan org mmg ku madah maybe nya sik paham situasi sebenar..nya gik mudak..lom nangga dunia sebenar..p dah ku nangga fb, ya ku realize, nang ada sstgh org tok dah sekali palaknya decide ya itam, waima nang putih jak depan mata kau nang mcm2 hujah dikelua nya madah ya itam..mun sik statnya merik alasan mcm2, demi nya maok itam tek..no!! this is not juz about right or wrong..aku sik mdh pihak cgek betol atau salah..duak2 ada betol atau salahnya bah..minak tolonglah..boleh sik ktkorg sedar..ktkorg dipuppetkan..politic is dirty..sangat!! ko ada nangga cdak indon cdak india..kotan politik sik stabil..ko maok idup giya kah? giya kah baruk bes rasa ko..? mena aih..palak2 cdak ya rasa nak ku sekeh jak..olahan mintak puji giya..aku bersyukor ngan rezeki yang aku ada..cukup2 bah..cdak nak miskin di negara kita tok siklah sampey nang kebuluran dikerondong lalat sik mampu nk muru.. (on a different note:oon, jiji, tida..ingat sik kesah nyaya diagak lalat n caranya muru kedak ney? epic nk o..? haha)

neway, actually, i am no one to talk..i do not even go to vote myself..tp next voting session aku akan try my best mok vote..dah aku mpun sik mampu memerintah..i love malaysia..i love it..really..i do..n i used to be very proud to be a malaysian..n now...? i am not so sure..what i know is i am proud to be a sarawakian..pls..mun mena nak tukar, tukar ke arah kebaikan..whc i know is too much to ask..

dah..ya jak nak ku kerepak skjp tok..post nak tiga igek nak ku dah tulis bena2 nak patut di post reya aku sikkan post..it is too personal..

..n ther's a story bout ?jempol?

2011-12-09T06:42:00.001-08:00

share ajak..in case ktkorg mok copy and paste d fb ktkorg..

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..n ther's a story bout love

2011-09-16T05:47:00.000-07:00

love is a crazie thing..makes u do things u never would have think of doing..a decision not easy to make..involving not me alone but people around me..a selfish decision i may said..but i only thinking of one person and that is not me..but of course waiting approval by my father..once the greenlight is there..and i'll be gone for good

..no turning back..no regret..long term complications had been considered..no it is not easy..and i am sorry..

..n ther's a story bout facebook

2011-08-17T20:21:00.000-07:00

..aku sik kalak2 gilak nak komen hal fb koh..sik maksud ku nyambupng nak ditetak urg ya ada lah..aku sik salu nemu nak pelllek2..yakah siks alu nemu..or dah cdak semuamua ko hide koh..mana2 lah..aritok ada cgek pos kutetak ku..

yajak nya tek gago nak ngecek mentega lain..hahahaha..p ari nang nak raya juak..adoh eh..balit tok gago besamak lah aku tok... :(

..jar of hearts..

2011-06-12T12:36:00.001-07:00

I know I can't take one more step towards you
Cause all that's waiting is regret
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love I loved the most

I learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are

I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms

I learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul

So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are

And it took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?

..n ther's a story i am going to be his wifey..

2010-12-31T04:19:00.000-08:00

aok..aku dah gatal..aku nak nikah..mun dapat bulan 3 aku terus nikah..siiiiik..cdak mok juak tunang..so aku tunang lah bulan tiga..blog tok akan jadi ala2 aku pn planner nok nikah..here goes:

kasut k nikah:
tok sekda kaitan sebenarnya..sbb hantaran aku sekda kasut..tp k ku nikah lak mun ku lupak bah..
http://zilfiah83.blogspot.com/2010/11/kasut-kahwin-below-rm150.html

website:
www.gavy.com.my
email:
enquiry@gavy.com.my
(my advise is go straight to gavy, sng deal)
number to call:
03-2698 8222 begin_of_the_skype_highlighting 03-2698 8222 end_of_the_skype_highlighting
017-327 9604 begin_of_the_skype_highlighting 017-327 9604 end_of_the_skype_highlighting
(bercakap dengan asyraf)
maju junction shopping centre (jalan tar)
dalam wedding city, infront of lagenda boutique

idea2 hantaran boleh ditiru d ctok:
http://pretty-hantaran.blogspot.com

baju:
http://holareynaa.blogspot.com/2009/07/baju-tunang.html

list hantaran kmk duak..
(ikut dulang)
him:
cincin
wallet n belt
perfume
songkok n songket
bju melayu
sirih junjung
kek lapis
buttercup kek (ala2 spesel..aku mok polah dikpun..ngehngeh)
kek kawin

her:
cincin n rantai merisik
jam
beg
perfume
sirih junjung
bunga ferero roche
kain baju k nikah lak

lak ku update gik entry tok..

..n still i am broke..

2010-12-11T10:10:00.000-08:00

remember the post i posted on twitter 335 days ago (as u can see there)-->

back then i was jobless, n yes, i am broke..

today, 12th December 2010, i have a stable work..n yet..i am still broke..

y? y?

essssserrrey...boh ko nok tekiak kaong y? y? nang jk ko ya buar..k, aku pn azam tahun baru..berjimat cermat..tapi sebelum aku berjimat cermat, aku nok meli ps3 and sofa bed..yajak..mun dapat bb torch juak..nyiahahaha..

..n ther's a story bout satc-wedding dress scene

2010-08-10T21:36:00.000-07:00

i have lots to say but i have no enuff time to write bout it..nah..juz sth to keep my blog looks 'alive'..? enjoy~

Click, click, click, flash...
Uh...Ciara...'08
Click, click, click, flash
...Pose...yeah!

(1st Verse) I know you probably think a girl like me is oh, so vain
Because I love it when the camera man screams out my name (uh huh)
He says "Hey there, look here, turn left, right, up, down, POSE!"
And I feel so beautiful modeling in these designer clothes

I feel so pretty, picture perfect, beautiful (picture perfect, beautiful)
Dont you feel pretty?...Like your putting on a show? (a,a,a show)
And the cameras go...

(Hook) Click, click, click, flash
(Ya, ya, ya beautiful baby) And the cameras go...
Click, click, click, flash
(Ya, ya, ya beautiful baby)

(2nd Verse) Now I'm feeling like a queen, I love your eyes on me
My hair is blowing in the wind I'm so sexy and free
And when my make-up is on I feel like a rock-star
The sun is shining on me oh yes, I'm living large
[Click, Flash Lyrics On http://www.elyricsworld.com/ ]
I feel so pretty, picture perfect, beautiful (picture perfect, beautiful)
Dont you feel pretty?...Like your putting on a show? (a,a,a show)
And the cameras go

(Hook) Click, click, click, flash
(Ya, ya, ya beautiful baby) And the cameras go...
Click, click, click, flash
(Ya, ya, ya beautiful baby)

(3rd Verse) Snap, snap, freeze...pose, look back, look back
Man, I ain't never seen a girl vogue like that (yeah...like that)
(Uh, lets go!)
I got my Kodak Instamatic, I grab it and I click and flash
They grab they cameraphones, whenever I be switching pass
So ultra-fabolous, my jeans, my jeans, they fit me crazy!
Them boys be yellin' out "You beautiful baby!"

I feel so pretty, picture perfect, beautiful (picture perfect, beautiful)
Dont you feel pretty?...Like your putting on a show? (a,a,a show)
And the cameras go...

(Hook) Click, click, click, flash
(Ya, ya, ya beautiful baby) And the cameras go...
Click, click, click, flash
(Ya, ya, ya beautiful baby)

I feel so pretty, picture perfect, beautiful (picture perfect, beautiful)
Dont you feel pretty?...Like your putting on a show? (a,a,a show)
And the cameras go...

Click, click, click, flash
(Ya, ya, ya beautiful baby) And the cameras go...
Click, click, click, flash
(Ya, ya, ya beautiful baby)

..n ther's a story bout "sex and the city"; alternate ending

2010-02-20T07:11:00.000-08:00

for those die hard fans of sex and the city, i came across three alternates ending for the series finale..never knew this before..which one do u like the best..?

sex and the city-alternate ending 1

sex and the city-alternate ending 2

sex and the city-alternate ending 3

dikurniakan mata untuk melihat, telinga untuk mendengar, AKAL tuk BERFIKIR...

2010-01-13T18:38:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum,

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim,

...terjumpa di facebook sahabat..

Beza Antara Merebut Nama Allah Dan Mempertahankan Akidah

Disiarkan pada Jan 02, 2010 dalam kategori Akidah |
** Dr. Mohd Asri bin Zainul Abidin enggan mengulas mengenai isu nama Allah yang telah diputuskan di mahkamah, sebaliknya berikut merupakan artikel lama yang telah ditulis beliau dan dicadangkan untuk pembacaan.

Banyak pihak mendesak saya memberikan pandangan tentang penggunaan nama Allah oleh agama lain khususnya agama Kristian di Malaysia ini. Pada awalnya, saya selalu mengelak, cuma memberikan pandangan ringkas dengan berkata: “Isu ini bukan isu nas Islam, ianya lebih bersifat pentadbiran atau tempatan.

Peraturan ini mungkin atas alasan-alasan setempat seperti kenapa sekarang baru ditimbulkan isu ini? Kenapa hanya Bible dalam bahasa melayu sahaja yang hendak menggunakan panggilan Allah, tidak pula edisi inggerisnya? Adakah di sana ada agenda tersembunyi? Maka wujudnya tanda soal dan beberapa prasangka yang mungkin ada asasnya. Maka lahirlah kebimbangan terhadap kesan yang bakal timbul dari isu itu nanti.

Namun, akhir-akhir ini saya terus didesak. Saya kata: jika anda hendak tahu pendirian Islam bukanlah dengan falsafah-falsafah tentang akar bahasa itu dan ini yang diutamakan. Rujuk terdahulu apa kata al-Quran dan al-Sunnah. Lepas itu kita bincang hukum berkenaan bertitik tolak dari kedua sumber tersebut.

Kadang-kala kesilapan kita dalam mempertahankan perkara yang tidak begitu penting, boleh melupakan kita kepada isu yang lebih penting. Isu yang terpenting bagi saya adalah kefahaman mengenai keadilan dan kerahmatan Islam yang mesti sampai kepada setiap rakyat negara ini, muslim atau bukan muslim. Supaya gambaran negatif yang salah terhadap Islam dapat dikikis dari minda mereka yang keliru.

Di samping itu, hendaklah kita jelas bahawa yang membezakan akidah Islam dan selainnya bukanlah pada sebutan, atau rebutan nama Allah, sebaliknya pada ketulusan tauhid dan penafian segala unsur syirik. Di samping, kita mesti bertanya diri kita: mengapakah kita sentiasa merasakan kita akan menjadi pihak yang tewas jika orang lain memanggil tuhan Allah? Mengapakah kita tidak merasakan itu akan lebih memudahkan kita menyampaikan kepada mereka tentang akidah Islam?. Maka, apakah isu ini bertitik tolak dari nas-nas Islam, atau kebimbangan disebabkan kelemahan diri umat Islam itu sendiri?

Jika kita membaca Al-Quran, kita dapati ia menceritakan golongan musyrikin yang menentang Nabi Muhammad s.a.w juga menyebut nama Allah dan al-Quran tidak membantah mereka, bahkan itu dijadikan landasan untuk memasukkan akidah Islam yang sebenar.

Firman Allah: (maksudnya) “Dan Demi sesungguhnya! jika engkau (Wahai Muhammad) bertanya kepada mereka: “Siapakah yang menciptakan mereka?” sudah tentu mereka akan menjawab: “Allah!”. (jika demikian) maka bagaimana mereka rela dipesongkan? Dan (Dia lah Tuhan Yang mengetahui rayuan Nabi Muhammad) yang berkata: Wahai Tuhanku! Sesungguhnya mereka ini adalah satu kaum yang tidak mahu beriman!” (Surah al-Zukhruf ayat 87-88).

Firman Allah dalam ayat yang lain: (maksudnya) “Dan sesungguhnya jika engkau (Wahai Muhammad) bertanya kepada mereka (yang musyrik) itu: “siapakah yang menurunkan hujan dari langit, lalu dia hidupkan dengannya tumbuh-tumbuhan di bumi sesudah matinya?” sudah tentu mereka akan menjawab: “Allah”. Ucapkanlah (Wahai Muhammad): “Alhamdulillah” (sebagai bersyukur disebabkan pengakuan mereka yang demikian), bahkan kebanyakan mereka tidak menggunakan akal (untuk memahami tauhid) (Surah al-Ankabut ayat 63).

Ayat-ayat ini, bahkan ada beberapa yang lain lagi menunjukkan al-Quran tidak membantahkan golongan bukan muslim menyebut Allah sebagai Pencipta Yang Maha Agung. Bahkan Nabi Muhammad s.a.w disuruh untuk mengucapkan kesyukuran kerana mereka mengakui Allah. Apa yang dibantah dalam ayat-ayat ini bukanlah sebutan nama Allah yang mereka lafazkan, sebaliknya ketidak tulusan tauhid yang menyebabkan akidah terhadap Allah itu dipesongkan atau bercampur syirik.

Justeru, soal bukan muslim mengakui Allah tidak dibantah oleh Islam, bahkan kita disuruh bersyukur kerana pengakuan itu. Cuma yang dibantah ialah kesyirikan mereka. Umpamanya, jika kita mendengar bukan muslim menyebut “Allah yang menurunkan hujan, atau menumbuhkan tumbuhan”, maka kita tentu gembira kerana dia mengakui kebesaran Allah.

Apakah patut kita kata kepadanya: awak jangan kata Allah yang menurunkan hujan, atau mencipta itu dan ini, awak tidak boleh kata demikian kerana awak bukan muslim, sebaliknya awak kena kata tokong awak yang menurun hujan”. Apakah ini tindakan yang betul? Tidakkah itu menjauhkan dia dari daerah ketuhanan yang sebenar? Kita sepatutnya berusaha mendekatkan dia kepada ajaran yang benar. Namun, jika dia berkata: “Tokong ini adalah Allah”. Saya kata: “Awak dusta, itu tidak benar! Maha suci Allah dari dakwaan awak”.

Maka, ketika Allah menceritakan peranan peperangan dalam mempertahankan keamanan dan kesejahteraan manusia,

Allah menyebut: (maksudnya) “..dan kalaulah Allah tidak mendorong setengah manusia menentang (pencerobohan) setengah yang lain, nescaya runtuhlah tempat-tempat pertapaan serta gereja-gereja (kaum Nasrani), dan tempat-tempat sembahyang (kaum Yahudi), dan juga masjid-masjid (orang Islam) yang sentiasa disebut nama Allah banyak-banyak dalam semua tempat itu dan sesungguhnya Allah akan menolong sesiapa yang menolong ugamanya (ugama Islam); Sesungguhnya Allah Maha Kuat, lagi Maha Perkasa. (Surah al-Hajj ayat 40).

Ayat ini mengakui tempat-tempat ibadah itu disebut nama Allah. Adapun berhubung dengan orang Kristian,

Allah menyebut: (maksudnya) “Sesungguhnya telah kafirlah mereka yang berkata: “Bahawasanya Allah ialah salah satu dari yang tiga (triniti)”. padahal tiada tuhan (yang berhak disembah) melainkan Tuhan Yang Maha Esa..(Surah al-Maidah ayat 73).

Ayat ini tidak membantah mereka menyebut Allah, tetapi yang dibantah adalah dakwaan bahawa Allah adalah satu dari yang tiga.

Justeru itu kita lihat, orang-orang Kristian Arab memang memakai perkataan Allah dalam Bible mereka, juga buku-buku doa mereka. Tiada siapa pun di kalangan para ulama kaum muslimin sejak dahulu yang membantahnya. Jika ada bantahan di Malaysia, saya fikir ini mungkin atas alasan-alasan setempat yang saya sebutkan pada awal tadi. Cuma yang diharapkan, janganlah bantahan itu akhirnya memandulkan dakwah Islam dan menjadikan orang salah faham terhadap agama suci ini.

Saya selalu bertanya sehingga bilakah kita di Malaysia ini akan begitu defensive, tidak memiliki anti-bodi dan tidak mahu berusaha menguatkannya dalam diri? Akhirnya, kita terus bimbang dan takut kepada setiap yang melintas. Padahal itu bukan sifat Islam. Islam agama yang ke hadapan, misi dan intinya sentiasa disebarkan.

Sehingga Allah menyebut: (maksudnya):“Dan jika seseorang dari kalangan musyrikin meminta perlindungan kepadamu, maka berilah perlindungan kepadanya sehingga dia sempat mendengar keterangan-keterang an Allah (tentang hakikat Islam itu), kemudian hantarlah dia ke tempat yang selamat. Demikian itu (perintah tersebut) ialah kerana mereka itu kaum yang tidak mengetahui (hakikat Islam). (Surah al-Taubah ayat 6).

Ada orang tertentu yang berkata kepada saya: nanti orang Islam keliru kerana sebutan nama Allah itu sama antara mereka dan Islam. Lalu rosak akidah orang Islam kita nanti. Saya berkata kepadanya: “Jikalaulah sebutan nama tuhan itulah yang menentukan akidah Islam, tentulah golongan musyrikin Mekah tidak memerlukan akidah yang dibawa oleh Nabi s.a.w. Mereka telah sekian lama memanggil tuhan dengan panggilan Allah.

Lihatlah bapa Nabi kita Muhammad bernama ‘Abdullah yang bermaksud hamba Allah. Tentu sekali bapa baginda lahir pada zaman jahiliah sebelum kemunculan baginda sebagai rasul. Nama itu dipilih oleh datuk Abdul Muttalib yang menjadi pemimpin Quraish pada zaman dahulu. Quraish pada zaman jahiliah juga bertawaf dengan menyebut: LabbaikalLahhumma yang bermaksud: Menyahut seruanMu ya Allah!

Al-Imam Muslim dalam sahihnya meriwayatkan hadis mengenai perjanjian Hudaibiah antara Nabi s.a.w dengan Quraish Mekah, seperti berikut:

“Sesungguhnya Quraish membuat perjanjian damai dengan Nabi s.a.w. Antara wakil Quraish ialah Suhail bin ‘Amr. Sabda Nabi s.a.w : barangkali aku boleh tulis Bismillahirrahmanir rahim. Kata Suhail: Adapun Bismillah (dengan nama Allah), maka kami tidak tahu apa itu Bismillahirrahmanir rahim. Maka tulislah apa yang kami tahu iaitu BismikalLahumma (dengan namaMu Ya Allah!)”. Dalam riwayat al-Bukhari, Nabi s.a.w menerima bantahan tersebut. Ternyata mereka menggunakan nama Allah.

Maka yang membezakan akidah Islam dan selainnya adalah tauhid yang tulus yang menentang segala unsur syirik. Ketidak jelasan dalam persoalan inilah yang menggugat akidah jenerasi kita. Mereka yang berakidah dengan akidah Islam sangat sensitif kepada sebarang unsur syirk agar tidak menyentuh akidahnya. Bukan semua yang mengakui Allah akan dianggap beriman dengan iman yang sah selagi dia tidak membersihkan diri dari segala unsur syirik.

Lihat, betapa ramai yang memakai serban dan jubah, berzikir sakan tetapi dalam masa yang sama menyembah kubur-kubur tok wali tertentu dengan cara menyeru dan merintih pemohonan darinya. Ini yang dilakukan oleh sesetengah tarekat yang sesat. Apa beza mereka ini dengan yang memanggil nama-nama berhala yang asalnya dari nama orang-orang saleh juga, yang mati pada zaman dahulu.

Firman Allah: (maksudnya) Ingatlah! Untuk Allah agama yang suci bersih (dari segala rupa syirik). dan orang-orang musyrik yang mengambil selain dari Allah untuk menjadi pelindung (sambil berkata): “Kami tidak menyembah mereka melainkan supaya mereka mendekatkan kami kepada Allah sehampir-hampirnya. Sesungguhnya Allah akan menghukum antara mereka tentang apa yang mereka berselisihan padanya. Sesungguhnya Allah tidak memberi hidayah petunjuk kepada orang-orang yang tetap berdusta (mengatakan Yang bukan-bukan) , lagi sentiasa kufur (dengan melakukan syirik). (Surah al-Zumar ayat 3).

Di Malaysia kita pun ada yang memakai gelaran agama menentang pengajaran tauhid rububiyyah, uluhiyyah, asma dan sifat. Mereka ini menyimpan agenda musuh-musuh dakwah. Padahal pengajaran tauhid yang sedemikianlah yang mampu menjadikan muslim memahami dengan mudah hakikat tauhid. Mampu membezakan antara; sekadar mempercayai kewujudan Allah dengan mentauhidkan Allah dalam zatNya, ibadah kepadaNya dan sifat-sifatNya.

Persoalan tauhid anti syirik ini begitu mudah dan ringkas untuk memahaminya. Nabi s.a.w telah menyebarkannya dengan begitu pantas dan mudah. Seorang badawi buta huruf yang datang berjumpa baginda mampu memahami hanya dalam beberapa sessi ringkas. Bahkan mampu pulang dan mengislamkan seluruh kaumnya dengan akidah yang teguh. Namun, di kalangan kita, pengajaran akidah yang dinamakan ilmu kalam begitu berfalsafah dan menyusahkan.

Bukan sahaja badwi, orang universiti pun susah nak faham. Sehingga seseorang bukan bertambah iman, tetapi bertambah serabut. Bertahun-tahun masih dalam kesamaran. Diajar Allah ada, lawannya tiada, dengar lawannya pekak, lihat lawannya buta..lalu ditokok tambah dengan falsafah-falsafah dan konsep-konsep yang menyusahkan. Padahal penganut agama lain juga menyatakan tuhan itu ada, melihat, tidak buta, mendengar, tidak pekak dan seterusnya. Apa bezanya jika sekadar memahami perkara tersebut cuma?

Maka anak-anak orang Islam kita gagal memahami hakikat tauhid anti-syirik yang sebenar. Padahal ianya begitu mudah semudah memahami kalimah-kalimah akidah dalam surah al-Ikhlas yang ringkas. Kata Dr Yusuf al-Qaradawi: “Tambahan pula, perbahasan ilmu kalam, sekalipun mendalam dan kepenatan akal untuk memahami dan menguasainya, ia bukannya akidah…Lebih daripada itu perbahasan ilmu kalam telah terpengaruh dengan pemikiran Yunan dan cara Yunan dalam menyelesaikan masalah akidah. Justeru itu imam-imam salaf mengutuk ilmu kalam dan ahlinya serta berkeras terhadap mereka” (Al-Qaradawi, Thaqafah al-Da’iyah, m.s. 92 Beirut: Muassasah al-Risalat). Dahulu kelemahan ini mungkin tidak dirasa, tetapi apabila kita hidup dalam dunia persaingan, kita mula menderitai kesannya.

Jika akidah jenerasi kita jelas, apakah mereka boleh keliru antara ajaran Islam dan Kristian? Adakah mereka tidak tahu beza antara ajaran yang menyebut tuhan bapa, tuhan anak dan ruhul qudus dengan akidah Islam yang anti-syirik, hanya disebabkan adanya sebutan Allah? Begitu jauh sekali perbezaan itu! Bagaimana mungkin sehingga mereka tidak dapat membezakan antara malam dan siang? Apakah juga nanti kita tidak membenarkan pihak lain menyebut nama nabi Ibrahim, Ishak, Ya’kub, Daud dan lain-lain kerana budak-budak kita akan keliru lagi. Akidah apakah yang mereka belajar selama ini di KAFA, JQAF dan berbagai lagi sehingga begitu corot. Kalau begitu, sama ada sukatan itu lemah, atau tenaga pengajarnya perlu dibetulkan.

Maka sebenarnya, isu ini adalah isu kelemahan kita umat Islam dalam memahami akidah yang sebenar. Jenerasi kita tidak mempunyai benteng akidah yang kukuh. Lalu kita semua bimbang mereka keliru dengan akidah orang lain. Untuk mengatasi masalah ini, kita cuba mengambil pendekatan undang-undang. Agar dengan halangan undang-undang, kelemahan akidah generasi kita dapat dipertahankan.

Persoalan yang patut kita fikirkan, sehingga bilakah kita akan mampu terus hidup hanya berbekalkan oksigen dari saluran undang-undang sehingga kita yang majoriti, dengan segala peruntukan yang ada; TV, radio, berbagai-bagai institusi dan agensi yang dilindungi, masih takut kepada gerakan minoriti? Di manakah kehebatan Islam yang selalu kita sebut dan ceritakan sejarah kegemilangannya? Atau sebenarnya, kita tidak memiliki Islam seperti hari ia diturunkan? Maka kempen Islam kita selalu tidak berkesan.

Bagi saya, bukan soal nama Allah itu yang terlalu perlu untuk direbut atau dijadikan agenda besar. Tetapi, gerakan membina semula akidah yang sejahtera dan memahamkan generasi kita wajah Islam yang sebenar agar mampu bersaing dan menghadapi cabaran zaman

Wallahu a'lam

n ther's a story bout my hair and the shampoo

2010-01-06T06:12:00.000-08:00

i am blessed with straight hair..not chopstick straight hair..but simply straight hair..however it is not perfect with lotss of frizz..and it will be snowy (yakek) in the episode of stress..such as exams..and..err..tats all bout it..only exams..i kno the weirdness of my hair..it only straight when it is really long..mun setakat lepas bahu it does this sudden bengkok that i can't remember to the right or left..now i can sesuka hati ikat my rambut and after leave it a few hours or lepas mandik, it can fall down straight..ngehngeh..but one thing bout me..i have this habit of not brushing my hair..but when i start to brush, lalulah nak nyisir sehari2 kedak rompuan ngegeh nak mati leput..sikmok nyisir kannya apa..masalah rambut aku tok cepat gilak nak luruh..nakpa kenak kah..hmm..okok..aku nok ngelaka sempu dipakey aku..apa tek aku tgh nak anta botol2 plastik tok jual rah tokey recycle..macam bes jak ambik gamba..alang2 cerita lah..eheh..

so, here goes~~

my evergreen shampoo..eheh

rejoice fruity anti dandruff..
been using it since..since nya keluar lah..before2 tok aku juz pakey comlplete jak..apa nya pn iklan madah ala2 rawatn spa..tp aku pakey tok sbb it is anti dandruff..i owez need an anti dandruff shampoo for myself..lastime sekdalah berkelukuh rambut ku koh..tapi sejak stress pelajaran, semakin berkerukoh rambut ku..so aku pakey tok..and nya kontrol aku pn kerukoh..and aku always cayak REJOICE..sik tauk ku..dari dolok2 ku rasa rambut ku tang beresi tang bes jak k REJOICE..owez k REJOICE..tp tukar2 jenis..complete la, anti dandruff, fruity la..fruity anti dandruff la..

...until i almost had a snowman on top of my head i change to this one..my snowy state started around six weeks into my secon final proffessional; the first attempt..the situation was so damn stress ..suddenly is c my books got snow snow one..sampey bulu mengsu ku ada juak berkerukoh..nak leput juak..so i think it's time for me to change my shampoo to a real concrete anti dandruff shampoo..only two brands i know, CLEAR or HEAD and SHOULDERS..one thing about anti dandruff shampoo it may cause ur hair to become k-ngasak-periok-like-consistency..i am not willing to sacrifice my hair..aku jarang rambut panjang benben bah..salu dah ku guntin ku time2 berkerukuh tahap super camtok..ada juak ku miker nak makey nk typical salu prescribe by doctors ya..yang kaler merah ya..it is a shampoo containing salicylic acid, tar, selenium lah..yajak ku tauk..lain2 ndak ku tauk apa dalam ya..tp agik juak ku miker mun rambut terkorban..and as for head and shoulders not only me, tapi rami juak orang merik testimonial madah keras ngeritin rambut kakya..and tambahan gik a well-known rival makey shampoo tok..i kno..childish, rite? huhu..ok..until one day during a visit to my makcik's funeral, i din bring my shampoo and have to use whatever shampoo in the toilet..and they are using, CLEAR;Hair Fall Defense..

nok botol kecik ya baruk gik dibeli adikku..suk nya ku rasa makey sempu tok..

perasaan lekak makey shampoo tok..setelah lamak bergelut ngan palak rasa berminyak sik beresi berkerukuh, tetiba rasa palak ku beresi..dan nyaman.. (nyaman agik yang mint ya..haha..coba duak2..) tapi pros paling best, lekak ya rambut sik keruk..rambut ok2 je.. (sekpat juak expect rambut nang alu licin lalat tergelincir..eh, ya rambut suhaimi)..dan nya claim ada hair fall defense..aku immediately fall in love ngan shampoo tok..so aku bershampoo tok lah..aku tauk tok akan jadi shampoo sementara ajak..sampey aku pn stress abis and kerukuh in control aku akan bertukar agik.. (aku tauk nang sik bagus bertukar shampoo..but aku suka coba2..hehe)..nektok tinggal rambut ku kusut tahap gila jak..nang frizzy koh!!but i lost my scratchy head..what a relief..

so, di Penang sekejap sik ngembak shampoo..malas..makey shampoo dibeli jijie ajak..shampoo SUNSILK ; Smooth and Manageble.. (yakah namanya? aku google tek ya kua..) so numpang shampoo tok..sekda perasaan ku makey..sekda lah rasa berbeza kah..tp nk nama malas nk bebeli berembak balit, bersabar jak kmk tiga kongsi tek..titzzz madah sik suka..sbb nya rasa shampoo tok nyuroh rempek jak rasa rambut nya..

sikmok eh k sempu tok gik..huhu..tp ku nang sik ngenak k sunsilk koh..ada jak kawan ku lain ngenak..lain urang lain bah..

dah balit ke bumi kenyalang aku nyambung la k CLEAR tek..sampey lah recently my last botol besar pn CLEAR habis..and aku bok perasan sekda gik kerukoh..so..aku ada delay time nok tukar or teruskan..so, dalam tiga hari shampoo clear abis yang leka-bejalan-meli-sik-ingat-dunia aku pn makey jak shampoo nok ada di rumah, iaitu HEAD and SHOULDERS for Men Hair Retain..mak aih!! nok leput rambut ku dikit gik kedak rambut amy winehouse lekak ya..tobat ku..sikmok gik..so aku pn nengong kelakar kawan, titzzz ku madah cgek shampoo tok bes...

pink owh kaler nya..pink ijo gik ya..i loikkkkkkke!! =">

CLAIROLTM Herbal Essences dangerously straight (sik kah loba nama sempu tok?)..aku nang dah lamak makey nya pn leave-on conditioner..all this time aku k leave on nya..tp ku couple ku ngan shampoo lain la..leave on nya bau nyaman..sbb ya ku makey..anyhoo, perasaan lekak makey shampoo tok kali pertama, first time ku nyisir rambut k tgh jarikku sampey ke ujong..stlh sekian lama..mun sik salu jak stuck tgh2..huhu..kusut bah..seronok eh..so, currently aku k shampoo tok..sampey kelak mun kerukoh ku datang lagi..hopefully sik..huhu..when i first saw it with it's new packaging, i told myself, never ever fall into this shampoo juz becoz the bottle is so fancy and attractive..but now, yes, i fall in love with this shampoo..eheh..

disclaimer: this entry is written based on my personal experiences..sekda kaitan idup or mati..apatah lagik sekda kaitan nok sabo mana2 syarikat pengeluar sempu..sekda kaitan cdak syarikat sempu ya ngan idup aku koh..........

..n ther's a story of 2010

2010-01-04T04:36:00.000-08:00

new year's here~~ 2010 a mark for a new beginning..i kno..this entry is a bit delay but i need to say what i need to say..hehe

the first half of my 2009 have a big impact on me..the tears.. the heartbroken.. i am in the lowest state of myself..but i lied and tell myself the other way around..a year that challenge me the most..physically and mentally.. (up2 tis moment..)..not only to me..but also to people around me..
and now 2010 is finally here..!! hello 2010..!!hopefully this new year brings happiness to me, my bapak, my family, my besties, people around me..and all my love ones..

another modified version of this entry ) let ask the same question again..

ii) what have i achieved for the second half of the year..?

A LOT!!

OMG thank you Allah..i have sooOOoo much to be thankful to this year..i mean..it begins in November!! err..October to be exact..end of the year, everything changes..and it changes BIG!! ok, we talk about Big later..i mean Big as in satc's Big..ok, forget bout tat..talk bout my second half of the year..even as i type this entry i can't stop smiling and being thankful..alhamdulillah ya Allah..u have given me a lot of happiness as 2009 end its sad episode..so, let's review.. *wink*
hmm..what did i do last year at this time..? still schooling..yeah!! i had finished my seven and a half years of medical schooling..!! thank God..or to be exact, after 21 years of study, i finally have my first degree!! i am a degree holder..i was this close (mejin jak ibu jarik ngan jarik telunjuk ku almost dikapit ku) to give up..but i have no choice..so i juz undergone my exam.. (i cried for two whole days..!!i kno!! drama queen rite? i dun care!! hehe)

okok..as a summary this is what my happiness for the second half of 2009..

i) i have managed to sit and experience the second professional exam for the second time..and this time, i passed!!! ;o)
ii) once during a presentation, i amazed my lecturer as i smoothly answered all his question..with a cool style..i amazed myself also..talking about being optimistic..!! and it boost my confidence level..
iii) i met my own Aidan!! and he's PurrFect!!
iv) i gained another new family..Aidan's family is perfect!!
v) our family's financial problem improved..better!! ;o)
vi) i shared my happiness with my family and friends and that adds up my list for more than 100%
vii) titzzz..hmm..she has her own happiness..well, it's hers to tell..not mee.. ;p
viii) my sis told me she's pregnant!! capiq is getting a bro?sis? apa2 pun boleh!! happiness!!
ix) jell dah nikah!! and i managed to attend my bestfriend's wedding!!
x) the happiest moment; a visit from Aidan~~ love u bee~~

thank you Allah..!! all the happiness that u gave me..nikmat paling susah ku rasa bila ku besar tok..alhamdulillah..

p/s: spookie aih..ku copy paste dari post ariya..nang semua fits rah entry tok..

..n ther's a story of how do u say no...

2009-12-26T08:12:00.000-08:00

what is the best way to say no to something u really want but u are not ready for it?

..n ther's a story bout parenting..

2009-12-22T19:52:00.000-08:00

there is always silent competition among parents..betandin anak sapa bagus agik, pandey agik, keja bagus agik, belaki/berbini ada pakej (kaya, keja bagus, kacak agik) and lastly lalulah betandin cucuk masing2..

apa poin ku bah..? ntah..mak bapak kawan ku sekda nak kedak ya koh..dah masin2 kamekorg tok dirasa kdak anak cdak masin2 (pesen cucuk ninek kah ndet..?)..bagus mekorang bangga juak cdak..sik bagus mekorang ngeruit juak ati cdak nk ngubit..

eh, nang bukan tok poin aku..aku nak naip ttg journey to the west: penang..tapi gik sekda mood nak ngerepak koh..huhu..kelak la ckit..

..n ther's a story bout a tour to terengganu..

2009-12-07T06:36:00.000-08:00

..~~a tour to terengganu~~..

tetiba teringat cikgu petimah (bukan nama sebenar..serey..!!) marek time sekolah jarang ku siapkan karangan disuroh nya polah.. (at least aku ada polah oi..walau sedikit..ada orang ya langsong sik polah..hahahaha xD pelu bangga meyh..?)

*****

pada cuti sekolah yang lepas, sekolah kami mengadakan lawatan ke negeri terengganu darul iman..lawatan ini diadakan atas permintaan ketua darjah kelas saya..saya dan rakan-rakan sekolah saya berasa sungguh seronok untuk menyertai lawatan ini..

mula2 kami pergi ke pulau kapas..pemandangan di pulau kapas sungguh cantik..saya dan kawan-kawan menikmati udara yang segar di pulau kapas..kami pergi mengelilingi pulau kapas dan mengutip kerang di tepi pantai..

pulau kapas

setelah puas menjelajahi pulau kapas..kami pergi pula melawat tasik kenyir..tiada apa yang menarik di sana..tetapi lawatan ke terengganu tidak akan lengkap jika tidak singgah ke tasik kenyir..kami singgah sebentar sahaja..

tasik kenyir (tok dipadah kau tiada apa yang menarik di sana tek? nak leput..)

pulau perhentian merupakan destinasi seterusnya..pulau perhentian terkenal dengan aktiviti riadah seperti menyelam dan snorkeling..kami ingin melakukan aktiviti tersebut..namun begitu kami tidak cukup keberanian untuk menyertai aktiviti menyelam dan snorkeling..lantas kami jalan-jalan sahaja..kami bersama-sama menikmati pemandangan indah matahari terbenam di pulau redang..

pulau perhentian

snorkeling di pulau perhentian

seterusnya rakan saya mengajak pergi ke pulau redang..alangkah seronoknya berada di sana..di pulau redang, kami berhenti untuk rehat lama di sana..ada kalanya kami bermain di tepi pantai dan adakalanya kami pergi ke bahagian tengah pulau redang..

pulau redang

matahari terbenam di pulau redang

destinasi terakhir adalah pulau lang tengah..terletak di antara pulau redang dan pulau perhentian, lawatan ke pulau lang tengah membuatkan kami begitu teruja kerana kesemua tempat yang kami lawat adalah sangat menarik dan indah..lantas kami ingin tahu apa yang menanti di pulau lang tengah..berjalan di sekeliling pulau tersebut, kami begitu tertarik dengan hidupan di sana..sesekali terdengar bunyi hidupan-hidupan di pulau tersebut menyambut ketibaan kami..sungguh indah pemandangan pulau ini..

pulau lang tengah

pengalaman melawat negeri terengganu darul iman tidak boleh dilupakan..sungguh seronok..saya benar-benar berharap akan boleh melawat pulau kapas, pulau redang, tasik kenyir dan pulau lang tengah suatu hari nanti..nak lagi nak lagi!!

disclaimer: semua cerita adalah rekaan semata..gambar-gambar diambil dari website-website lain dan bukan lah pemilik blogger ini..blogger ini berasa bosan lantas membuat cerita yang tidak begitu merapu ini..namun begitu blogger ini ingin mengajak saudara saudari sekalian pergi melawat terengganu kerana sesungguhnya kesemua gambar yang dipapar di sini merupakan gambar sebenar di tempat yang sebenar..sesunggunya malaysia merupakan negara yang indah..dah gik aku merapu tok eh..

japjapjap..before that..
biar pun karang aku burok, atleast bukan karangan antara tiga igek tok nk?lawak aih..baca ktkorg..

hahaha lawak eh..goleng2 ku tetak tok.. ;p

..n ther's a story bout twilight saga : new moon..

2009-12-06T08:55:00.000-08:00

quoted from twilight saga: new moon

Edward Cullen: Just give me five years and I'll change you.
Bella Swan: That's too long.
Edward Cullen: Three?
Bella Swan: *Stares at him*
Edward Cullen: You're so stubborn.
Bella Swan: What are you waiting for?
Edward Cullen: I have one condition if you want me to do it myself.
Bella Swan: What's the condition?
Edward Cullen: And then forever.
Bella Swan: That's what I'm asking.
Edward Cullen: Marry me, Bella.

in the real life..(weeks before the premierre of new moon)

her: just give me five years..until u finished ur study..
him: that's too long..
her: three?
him: *stares at her*
her: huhu..huhu..
him: what are u waiting for..?
her: i need to get myself ready,blablabla...work..blablabla..family..blablabla..learn cooking..blablabla

*mode ketuy* sama eh mek duak edward cullen pk eh..haha..ngek..dah udah..boh perasan..

ok seriously..hmm..malas eh kelaka issue cyes dalam tok..ktkorg tauk juak bah..this is still early..huhu..mun ada jodoh ada lah ya..2012..is it..?

..n ther's a story bout recipe..

2009-12-05T06:46:00.000-08:00

sapa kenal ngan aku tauk la betapa buta masakan nya aku..tp nk aritok tek ku masak, aku suka..mashed potatoes ku nyemm khek..suk ku..recipe dari alex..nyiehehe..juh ku kongsi.. (ku tauk, mesti ktkorg madah, sekda org nanyak..nak..? aku sik uli..mok juak madah..hehe

sekda lah giney2 resipi mashed potatoes ya..haha..

bahan2 nya..chewah..
potatoes sebanyak ktk maok
butter
full cream milk
garam secukup rasa
black pepper
(ada org maok engkah cream k nambah creamy potatoes ya)

potatoes potong dadu rebus sampey licak..kakya suma potatoes ya mashed kan..tambah butter tambah susu full cream tek..tambah tok sengan2 yang ktkorg maok..mun maok tang berlemak tambah butter banyak..mun maok creamy tambah susu banyak..tapi mun tambah susu jgn sampey nya basah gilak..sik bes rupa mashed potatoes ktk lak..basically butter nakkah "lepa susu" so tambah susu ngan butter tok sama jak pun tujuan nya..hehe..kakya tambah garam secukup rasa...sesetengah org suka nya creamy agik and tambah cream..(aku tok nang aek aku suka nak berlemak2..so ku suka nak nambah la..haha) abis tambah suma ya, bila idang, scoop kan, then juz ambor ngan black pepper atas nya la..

tada~~ siap la..hehe..

nok ujong belah nun..sik clear kali jak pic tok..sik nampak lalu nya mpun pepper itam2..papa lah..p ya tek spegeti polah ku..recipe kunduran..makseh...makseh..

dessert tek ala2..secret recipe brownies eskrem..perasan ke dirik bah..tapi sik presentation pon..nyatok..

nyaman eh.. (perasan nk o..? ;p )

alhamdulillah..

2009-11-26T15:05:00.001-08:00

alhamdulillah..

this one for u mak... ;o)

..n ther's a story of the results

2009-11-26T15:02:00.000-08:00

after se7en and 6ix months of suffering..

I GOT MY MD...!! alhamdulillah~~ syukur ya Allah..first of all thanx to Allah..sbb polah harapan mak aku jadi kenyataan..mak kaseh to all..semua org sekeliling..especially my bapak..bersabar anak daranya tok lamak laja ngabis duit..besaba jak olahan sik pandey nak beketum di umah sik macam anak dara org lain bemasak ngemas umah..(i buat yang lite2 je..huhu)

thanx to my besfrensZZ..kundur, terrida, oon, eton, jijie, sai, nonno, jell, amat, asnol, abu, fitri, three..ktkorg suma sangat2 tolong aku..huhu..duak ari result kua..keja ku nang ngansa jak2..sik nya sik koh..org lain hepi2 aku nangis..huhu..

to all family,frens..semua ktkorg nolong aku tok..sik kira physically or mentally..merik semangat segala..merik nota2..thx to seaworld club, sbb sama2 go through all this, thx to my classmate cdak nani rasid and all..banyak berik tolong time mula2 marek..biar kenal ngak setaun..makseh tolong..thx, wen, matt dan apis, mimiq molah colourful idupku sepanjang kenal ktkorg..thx parents kawan2 ku..

special thx to my b..u make my study week easier..thanx for making me happy..(b, takut mek nak datang umah ktk february tok b..huhu..) and thanx for having faith in me..thanx for being so understanding (mesti ktk jawab, bukan faham pun, juz... ;p) thx sbb teman kmk study salu.. (salu jak study ya lalu jadi borak2 koh)..thanx..and thanx..

..and last sekali..thx to my guardian angel..thanx sbb take care of me and never give up..even when i do..thanx for everything..u know how much u mean to me..and u know..tq is juz not enuff..huhu..come back my angel..balit la..huhu..

..ain't about how fast i get ther, ain't about what's waiting on the other side..
~~IT'S THE CLIMB~~

..n ther's a story bout my 2nd prof exam

2009-11-13T06:13:00.000-08:00

the questions for meq:

medicine=bronchial asthma
surgery=gastric carcinoma
paediatrics=typhoid fever
ob-gyn=post partum haemorrhage
orthopaedics=giant cell tumour

the questions for osce:

ndak ku ingat eh..malas leh sik..?

lc and sc..

lc
nephrotic syndrome

sc
polyhydramnios
vsd
ulnar neve palsy

result esok..all the best seaworld club!! huhu

..n ther's a story bout lucky..

2009-11-08T15:11:00.000-08:00

i am lucky...one lucky girl~ *wink* ok....gonna tell u evthing after i finished my exam..

..n ther's a story bout an ice queen..

2009-11-06T07:06:00.000-08:00

me? ice queen..? when did this happen..? sejak bila? kenak ngan aku aku tok..? apahalkah..? kenak ko kedak ya? kenak ko mesti ada yang cemya..perlukah? perlukah ice queen segala? sik boleh kah ko nandah kompun heppy macam org lain? sekpalah..at least ko be with someone yang sayang ko nk..? rather than ko terkejar2 org yang ko suka..kan..?

....the worse situation of all is sitting next to ur love one knowing that they love someone else.....
-anonymous

..n ther's a song..

2009-11-01T04:05:00.000-08:00

somebody dedicated this song to me...

hmm..really.....? don't think so..u have so much to learn la kiddo..the world is not all candies and cookies..

..n ther's a story bout virgo part III

2009-09-05T06:07:00.000-07:00

macam bena...huhu..mena kata kunduran..nang horoscope tok ala2 benar..huhu..takut..

..n ther's a story of quote of the day.. ;o)

2009-09-05T00:38:00.000-07:00

..nope..not that long..and i'm back..wee~~

this is hilarious..this is genius..baca tok ai..baca kan..aku rasa mok berik link ajak..p kelak ktkorg sik clik..baca..baca..bes..taken from here ..

This is the most identifiable collection of thoughts I ever
read. I didn’t write it, and I have no idea who did, but it’s awesome…(courtesy
of a facebook note by Yomssss)
Random thoughts from people our age…

1. I wish Google Maps had an “Avoid Ghetto” routing
option.
2. More often than not, when someone is telling me a story
all I can think about is that I can’t wait for them to finish so that I can tell
my own story that’s not only better, but also more directly involves me.
3. Nothing sucks more than that moment during an argument
when you realize you’re wrong.
4. I don’t understand the purpose of the line, “I don’t need
to drink to have fun.” Great, no one does. But why start a fire with flint and
sticks when they’ve invented the lighter?
5. Have you ever been walking down the street and realized
that you’re going in the complete opposite direction of where you are supposed
to be going? But instead of just turning a 180 and walking back in the direction
from which you came, you have to first do something like check your watch or
phone or make a grand arm gesture and mutter to yourself to ensure that no one
in the surrounding area thinks you’re crazy by randomly switching directions on
the sidewalk.
6. That’s enough, Nickelback.
7. I totally take back all those times I didn’t want to nap
when I was younger.
8. Is it just me, or are 80% of the people in the “people you
may know” feature on Facebook people that I do know, but I deliberately choose
not to be friends with?
9. Do you remember when you were a kid, playing Nintendo and
it wouldn’t work? You take the cartridge out, blow in it and that would
magically fix the problem. Every kid in America did that, but how did we all
know how to fix the problem? There was no internet or message boards or FAQ’s.
We just figured it out. Today’s kids are soft.
10. There is a great need for sarcasm font.
11. Sometimes, I’ll watch a movie that I watched when I was
younger and suddenly realize I had no idea what the f was going on when I first
saw it.
12. I think everyone has a movie that they love so much, it
actually becomes stressful to watch it with other people. I’ll end up wasting 90
minutes shiftily glancing around to confirm that everyone’s laughing at the
right parts, then making sure I laugh just a little bit harder (and a
millisecond earlier) to prove that I’m still the only one who really, really
gets it.
13. How the hell are you supposed to fold a fitted
sheet?
14. I would rather try to carry 10 plastic grocery bags in
each hand than take 2 trips to bring my groceries in.
15. I think part of a best friend’s job should be to
immediately clear your computer history if you die.
16. The only time I look forward to a red light is when I’m
trying to finish a text.
17. A recent study has shown that playing beer pong
contributes to the spread of mono and the flu. Yeah, if you suck at it.
18. Was learning cursive really necessary?
19. Lol has gone from meaning, “laugh out loud” to “I have
nothing else to say”.
20. I have a hard time deciphering the fine line between
boredom and hunger.
21. Answering the same letter three times or more in a row on
a Scantron test is absolutely petrifying.
22. My brother’s Municipal League baseball team is named the
Stepdads. Seeing as none of the guys on the team are actual stepdads, I inquired
about the name. He explained, “Cuz we beat you, and you hate us.” Classy,
bro.
23. Whenever someone says “I’m not book smart, but I’m street
smart”, all I hear is “I’m not real smart, but I’m imaginary smart”.
24. How many times is it appropriate to say “What?” before
you just nod and smile because you still didn’t hear what they said?
25. I love the sense of camaraderie when an entire line of
cars teams up to prevent a dick from cutting in at the front. Stay strong,
brothers!
26. Every time I have to spell a word over the phone using
‘as in’ examples, I will undoubtedly draw a blank and sound like a complete
idiot. Today I had to spell my boss’s last name to an attorney and said “Yes
that’s G as in…(10 second lapse)..ummm…Goonies”
27. What would happen if I hired two private investigators to
follow each other?
28. While driving yesterday I saw a banana peel in the road
and instinctively swerved to avoid it…thanks Mario Kart.
29. MapQuest really needs to start their directions on #5.
Pretty sure I know how to get out of my neighborhood.
30. Obituaries would be a lot more interesting if they told
you how the person died.
31. I find it hard to believe there are actually
people who get in the shower first and THEN turn on the water.
32. Shirts get dirty. Underwear gets dirty. Pants? Pants
never get dirty, and you can wear them forever.
33. I would like to officially coin the phrase ‘catching the
swine flu’ to be used as a way to make fun of a friend for hooking up with an
overweight woman. Example: “Dave caught the swine flu last night.”
34. I can’t remember the last time I wasn’t at least kind of
tired.
35. Bad decisions make good stories
36. Whenever I’m Facebook stalking someone and I find out
that their profile is public I feel like a kid on Christmas morning who just got
the Red Ryder BB gun that I always wanted. 546 pictures? Don’t mind if I
do!
37. Is it just me or do high school girls get sluttier &
sluttier every year?
38. If Carmen San Diego and Waldo ever got together, their
offspring would probably just be completely invisible.
39. Why is it that during an ice-breaker, when the whole room
has to go around and say their name and where they are from, I get so incredibly
nervous? Like I know my name, I know where I’m from, this shouldn’t be a
problem….
40. You never know when it will strike, but there comes a
moment at work when you’ve made up your mind that you just aren’t doing anything
productive for the rest of the day.
41. Can we all just agree to ignore whatever comes after
DVDs? I don’t want to have to restart my collection.
42. There’s no worse feeling than that millisecond you’re
sure you are going to die after leaning your chair back a little too far.
43. I’m always slightly terrified when I exit out of Word and
it asks me if I want to save any changes to my ten page research paper that I
swear I did not make any changes to.
44. “Do not machine wash or tumble dry” means I will never
wash this ever.
45. I hate being the one with the remote in a room full of
people watching TV.. There’s so much pressure. ‘I love this show, but will they
judge me if I keep it on? I bet everyone is wishing we weren’t watching this.
It’s only a matter of time before they all get up and leave the room. Will we
still be friends after this?’
46. I hate when I just miss a call by the last ring (Hello?
Hello? Dammit!), but when I immediately call back, it rings nine times and goes
to voicemail. What’d you do after I didn’t answer? Drop the phone and run
away?
47. I hate leaving my house confident and looking good and
then not seeing anyone of importance the entire day. What a waste.
48. When I meet a new girl, I’m terrified of mentioning
something she hasn’t already told me but that I have learned from some light
internet stalking.
49. I like all of the music in my iTunes, except when it’s on
shuffle, then I like about one in every fifteen songs in my iTunes.
50. Why is a school zone 20 mph? That seems like the optimal
cruising speed for pedophiles…
51. As a driver I hate pedestrians, and as a pedestrian I
hate drivers, but no matter what the mode of transportation, I always hate
cyclists.
52. Sometimes I’ll look down at my watch 3 consecutive times
and still not know what time it is.
53. It should probably be called Unplanned Parenthood.
54. I keep some people’s phone numbers in my phone just so I
know not to answer when they call.
55. Even if I knew your social security number, I wouldn’t
know what do to with it.
56. Even under ideal conditions people have trouble locating
their car keys in a pocket, hitting the G-spot, and Pinning the Tail on the
Donkey – but I’d bet my ass everyone can find and push the Snooze button from 3
feet away, in about 1.7 seconds, eyes closed, first time every time…
57. My 4-year old son asked me in the car the other day “Dad
what would happen if you ran over a ninja?” How the hell do I respond to
that?
58. It really pisses me off when I want to read a story on
CNN.com and the link takes me to a video instead of text.
59. I wonder if cops ever get pissed off at the fact that
everyone they drive behind obeys the speed limit.
60. I think the freezer deserves a light as well.
61. I disagree with Kay Jewelers. I would bet on any given
Friday or Saturday night more kisses begin with Miller Lites than Kay.
62. The other night I ordered takeout, and when I looked in
the bag, saw they had included four sets of plastic silverware. In other words,
someone at the restaurant packed my order, took a second to think about it, and
then estimated that there must be at least four people eating to require such a
large amount of food. Too bad I was eating by myself. There’s nothing like being
made to feel like a fat bastard before dinner

quoted from.. here ..

bes kata2 cdak tok..bes ehs..

..dah eh..cukuplah..

2009-09-01T05:07:00.000-07:00

Al-Fatihah k Usu Tuyah..semoga Allah Ta'ala mengampunkan dosanya dan menempatkannya di kalangan orang beriman..InshaAllah dengan berkat Ramadhan bulan Al-Mubarak, rohnya dirahmati..

اَللَّهُمَّ اغْفِرْ لَهُ وَارْحَمْهُ وَعَافِهِ وَاعْفُ عَنْهُ، وَأَكْرِمْ نُزُلَهُ، وَوَسِّعْ مَدْخَلَهُ، وَاغْسِلْهُ بِالْمَاءِ وَالثَّلْجِ وَالْبَرَدِ، وَنَقِّهِ مِنَ الْخَطَايَا كَمَا نَقَّيْتَ الثَّوْبَ اْلأَبْيَضَ مِنَ الدَّنَسِ، وَأَبْدِلْهُ دَارًا خَيْرًا مِنْ دَارِهِ، وَأَهْلاً خَيْرًا مِنْ أَهْلِهِ، وَزَوْجًا خَيْرًا مِنْ زَوْجِهِ، وَأَدْخِلْهُ الْجَنَّةَ، وَأَعِذْهُ مِنْ عَذَابِ الْقَبْرِ [وَعَذَابِ النَّارِ]

Allahhum maghfirlahu warhamhu wa'fu 'anhu wa 'afihee wa-akrim nuzuluhu wa was-si' mudkhalahu, waghsilhu bil maee wath thalji wal bardi, wa naq-qihi minal 'khataya Kama yunaq- qath thawbul abyadu minad danasi, wa abdilhu daran Khayram min darihi, wa ahlan Khayram min ahlihi wa zawjan khayrum min-zawjihi, wa adkhil hul jan-nata, waqihi fitnatal qabri wa 'Azaban nar

O Allah! Forgive him and have Mercy on him and give him strength and pardon him. Be generous to him and cause his entrace to be wide and wash him with water and snow and hail.
Cleanse him of his transgressions as white cloth is cleansed of stains. Give him an abode better than his home, and a family better than his family and a wife better than his wife. Take him into Paradise and protect him from the punishment of the grave (and of the fire)

[Muslim; 2:663]

..dah eh..aku pelu shutdown dari suma2 tok..apa2 pun suma2 tok ya...kelak dah ku stabil kit bok ku nyambong..cukup2lah..mah sa nyawa ku tok..aok..ada hikmahnya..nang sekda sesalan..agik byk hikmah..but aku juz a human..i need a moment of time..for myself..this is me hibernating..sampey cgek masa aku balit agik..bila aku dah temu apa aku carik..for the time being, aku mok stabilkan apa2 nok aku rasa dalam hatiku tok..byk gilak ujian dberik Allah Ta'ala..personally to me and to my family..till then..

..click..

..to be continued

..n ther's a story bout as-Syiam..

2009-08-27T09:48:00.000-07:00

as syiam posa nak? nak? yajak ku nk nyk..

AL-FATIHAH..to makni ku..

2009-08-20T19:29:00.000-07:00

to org ninggal makni ku..

Allahummaghfighlaha warhamha wa afiha wa'fu'anha
May Allah ta’ala engulf him in His Mercy, forgive her sins, accept her deeds, and admit her into the highest level of Jannah, Jannatul Firdaus. Ameen.

ku xmok jaik ngan org agik..sejaik ney pun org ngan aku..byk gilak tuhan dah nunjok sik pelu nak bebalas dendam apa indah..sik pelu nak jaik ngan manusia..biar jak lak tuhan balas..mun kita gago nak balas nak betunok kemenyan betutok kaca kita sama juak jadinya..bagus agik mun forgive..juz forgive..u will get nothing..boh jaik ngan org..ingat ya..!!IBOH JAIK NGAN ORG..

kin sikit dik badik mak aku..nang pompan family mekorg tok sik berapa nak pjg umo..setakat tok tiga dah ninggal below fifty..one cause of ca...two cause of heart..

..n ther's a story of my favourite subject..

2009-08-19T02:31:00.000-07:00

at the age of twenty-ish (uhuk2..batuk2) years old, i am single, available, and haven;t settle down and still struggling to get my degree..as a student, it is not uncommon for one to have his/her own preferance towards certain subject..currently, as a medical student, i am also into some subject which i enjoyed to study the most..

most favourite subject:
medicine..surprise? haha..i heart this subject the most..especially pertaining the heart..cardiology..surprise again..? don't be..!! the pitfall..? the lecturers in this field are all killers!! daym!! and if they're not killers, they're retarded (referred to my previous post of Mr R ..part ONE and part TWO)..of course ther's exception but basically the lecturers killed the student's interest towards this subject..(and of course the endless syllibus of it considering it is the basic for medical as a whole)..

least favourite subject:
O.B Gyn..sik suka nangga kerang..period..
(according to kunduran it is gross..sampey sik lalu makan kawan lekak nangga tok..haha..)

paling bersemangat pun posting:
paediatrics..y? i simply loooOOOOOve children..they're adorable..they bite..and u can play with them..how fun it is if u can play and study at teh same time..? rite? rite?

mun ada rezeki aku nak further in apa:
psychiatry..and i have my own excuses..
(but if people ask..i will answer differently..juz simply said paediatrics..so i can easily answered the subsequent question..y? because i love children..maka jak mun suka nembiak sik ku maok ambik paeds koh..kesian nangga nembiak dicucok cya ctok..)

..n ther's a story of how to bowl..chapter 3

2009-08-18T07:43:00.001-07:00

Today’s lesson is taken from Chapter 2 of ABC Book To Bowling STRIKES & SPARES Volume # 3 SYSTEMS TO FOLLOW.
THE 3:1:2 RATIO
ADJUSTMENT FOR VARYING LANE CONDITIONS
Strikes occur more frequently when the ball strikes the 1, 3, 5 and 9 pins. But this accuracy is seldom achieved on the first few balls of practice or game. The bowler is trying to find a line.
When rolling practice balls, the bowler should strive to establish an accuracy line. This line has been found when the ball hits the head pin and causes that pin to take out the 2, 4, and 7 pins, that is, those on the left side. To establish this accuracy line, the bowler should use the 3:1:2 spot bowling ratio system to make the necessary adjustments.
This ratio system means that to create a 3-board difference or adjustment at the pins, a 2-board adjustment must be made at the starting position.
THE PROCEDURE
When rolling practice balls, the bowler should use the second arrow from the right edge of the lane as a target. When the right shoulder is lined up to this mark, the instep of the bowler’s left foot normally lines up with about the 17th board. This position is only an initial starting position. A few normal deliveries using these initial starting and aiming targets help determine whether the ball is high – to the left of the pocket –- or light – to the right of the pocket.
It would be unusual if the initial starting and aiming references result in the ball properly hitting the headpin. But the bowler should always use a basic starting position as a reference when rolling the first few balls. If the ball consistently arrives at the headpin to the left of the desired point of impact, the bowler should determine how much the ball is off target. The bowler should then make an adjustment.
If the ball arrives at the pins about 3 inches to the left of the desired point, the starting position should be adjusted 2 inches to the left.
Any multiples or divisors of this 3:2 ratio can be used. For example, if the ball is 6 inches too high at the pins, the starting position would be adjusted 4 inches to the left, of the original position, etc.
It is important that a bowler aligns himself to the changed angle of delivery when making these adjustments.
In the 3:1:2 system, the number in the middle, 1, represents the change in finishing position at the foul line. The bowler can use this number to ensure that the approach is in line with the adjusted starting position and the second arrow.
SUMMARY
The 3:1:2 ratio system means that a 2-board adjustment at the starting position causes a 1-board difference in the finishing position at the foul line and a 3-board difference at the pins.
This adjustment technique can be used on any evenly-dressed lane condition and with any speed of delivery or any size of hook or curve. The system depends on ratios that exist between the various markers-spots on the approach and the lane.
The explanation of the 3:1:2 system is fairly simple. In the accompanying diagram, the pins are 45 feet from the arrows. The arrows are 15 feet from the foul line. The starting dots are 30 feet from the arrows. The initial ratio of all these points is thus 45:15:30. Dividing by 15, the greatest common divisor, reduces the ratio to 3:1:2.
Because the ball is delivered and pivots on the second arrow, a move of 2 boards at the starting position results in a change of 3 boards at the pins.All bowlers should be encouraged to use this ratio adjustment system. It is a positive method for making adjustment and eliminates guesswork. Adjustments should always be positive and deliberate. However, as in all successful bowling methods, the delivery should be consistent.

..n ther's a story of how to bowl..chapter 2

2009-08-18T07:41:00.000-07:00

Today’s lesson is taken from Chapter 3 of ABC Book To Bowling STRIKES & SPARES Volume #2 DEVELOPING CONSISTENCY.
PERSONAL NUMBERS
GUIDE TO DETERMINE DRIFTING
What is a PERSONAL NUMBER? What is the purpose of having one? And how is it going to help me improve my game?
It is common knowledge that 9 out of every 10 bowlers drift either left or right when sliding to the foul line.What it really means is that when you stand in your starting position on the approach, you do not always end up at the foul line on the same starting board number.
The difference in the number of boards from your original starting position and your finish position is your drift number. So, if you know your PERSONAL NUMBER, you will be able to make the necessary adjustment to your starting position, allowing you to finish in the correct position.
HOW TO DETERMINE PERSONAL NUMBER (PN)
Every bowler can determine their Personal Number from the following chart.
Bowler will use 7 as the common starting number to determine their PN.
Right-handed bowler who drifts to the right, add your drift to 7 and the answer is your PN.
Right-handed bowler who drifts to the left, subtract your drift from 7, answer is your PN.
Left-handed bowler who drifts to the left, add your drift to 7 and the answer is your PN.
Left-handed bowler who drifts to the right, subtract your drift from 7, answer is your PN.
Right-handed bowler or Left-handed bowler with 0 drift, PN is 7.

PERSONAL NUMBER CHART
RIGHT HAND BOWLER LEFT HAND BOWLER
LEFT DRIFT RIGHT LEFT DRIFT RIGHT
7 PN = 0 = PN 7 7 PN = 0 = PN 7
6 PN = 1 = PN 8 8 PN = 1 = PN 6
5 PN = 2 = PN 9 9 PN = 2 = PN 5
4 PN = 3 = PN 10 10 PN = 3 = PN 4
3 PN = 4 = PN 11 11 PN = 4 = PN 3
2 PN = 5 = PN 12 12 PN = 5 = PN 2
NOTE: Almost all bowlers miss their ankle by 7 boards when they release the ball. That is why the common starting number is 7. Some bowlers miss ankle by 6 boards (lower PN by 1). Some bowlers miss ankle by 8 boards (increase PN by 1).
HOW TO DETERMINE WHAT YOU MISS YOUR ANKLE BY:
Most bowlers can have a partner to watch from behind and see which board the instep of the sliding foot ended on, and which board the center of the ball passed over.
The number of boards in-between are the ankle/ball relationship for the bowler.
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------To learn more, check out ABC Book To Bowling STRIKES & SPARES Volume #2 DEVELOPING CONSISTENCY at this site http://www. ABC2BowlingStrikes-Spares.Com

..n ther's a story of how to bowl..chapter 1

2009-08-18T07:40:00.000-07:00

BASIC RELEASE
BENCHMARK FOR BEGINNERS
HAND AND WRIST POSITIONS
The position of the hand and wrist principally affect how the ball reacts on the lane. Potential energy is ‘stored’ for later use by how the hand and wrist are ‘cocked’ in the stance. This energy translates into hook and/or roll potential when it is utilized during ball release. The style of the bowler, the type of shot and the condition of the lane determine whether a lot or very little energy is stored.
There are two components to consider:
Hand position (cocked, straight, uncocked)
Wrist position (cupped, straight, broken)
HAND POSITION
Imagine that you are invisible. When bowling, a person at the back would be able to see right through you to the bowling ball in your hand.
Now, imagine a clock face positioned around the bowling ball, with 12.00 being straight up toward the ceiling.
This is the mental image we want to use for discussing hand position.
The hand position discussed here is the BASIC RELEASE. The basic release provides medium roll and medium hook potential.
For a right-handed bowler, the thumb should be at 10.00 with the middle finger at 4.00 and the ring finger at 5.00.
For a left-handed bowler, the thumb should be at 2.00 with the middle finger at 8.00 and the ring finger at 7.00.
In this position, the fingers will naturally impart sideways spin or tilt on the ball after the thumb drops out of the hole during the release. Under medium lane conditions, this spin will become hooking power on the lane.
This basic position can be expanded upon to complement a variety of releases. For example, if the hand is ‘cocked’ further by positioning the thumb at the 2.00 position (10.00 LHB), more sideways spin and hook potential can be realized.
If the position is relaxed so that the thumb is pointed straight up in the 12.00 position, the ball will track straighter and roll more. Techniques that involve ‘uncocking’ the hand at the moment of release can also be used. At the more advanced level, these techniques can be combined with different wrist positions to engineer a broad range of releases.
WRIST POSITION
There are three basic wrist positions: cupped, straight and broken. They are also referred to as the three M’s.
A cupped wrist provides maximum hooking potential
A straight wrist provides medium hooking potential
A broken wrist provides minimum hooking potential
It is recommended that beginners master the straight wrist before experimenting with the other wrist positions. For more experienced bowlers, changing wrist positions is a great technique for varying ball reaction on the lane.
NOTE: If you cup your wrist, do it moderately. If the wrist is cupped so much that you hang in the ball during release, injury may result.
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To learn more, check out ABC Book To Bowling STRIKES & SPARES Volume #1 BASIC FUNDAMENTALS at this site http://www.ABC2BowlingStrikes-Spares.Com

AL-FATIHAH

2009-08-17T11:26:00.000-07:00

this entry was made just for an education for the public out there..never it was meant to humiliate anybody or never it was meant to disgrace anyone..it was also not intended to be on any side..purely, it is for education for the public to know what are the purpose of the intervention done by the medical staffs, in a hope that one day, we will make the right decision for our beloved one..maybe my readers are not as many as kenny sia's reader..nor that i have a voice of sultanmuzaffar or Raja Petra to make my writing be viewed by the whole of Malaysia..but to educate a small number of people is better as they can also further pass the message for people around themm..Ilmu, sik kurang mun dikongsi koh..

today, i received a news..a beloved friend of a friend had passed away..at the age of 26 years old, the eldest son of six with bright future he had left the world..

give yourself a moment of silence..a recite of al-Fatihah for Allahyarham..May Allah bless his soul, forgive him of his sins, make his grave a garden and place his soul among the righteous in the Hereafter..

Aameeeen

he will be remembered by his family and friends

In medical settings, we had been thought first to stabilize a patient.. a step of DR A B C as we called it, was meant to rank the most important stuff to be prioritized..

D-Assess danger..u have to safe yourself before others..in a danger work setting, u cant afford to put yourself in danger..u cannot safe people if u died..
e.g: working on an accident scene..u can't save a patient in the middle of the road exposing yourself and the patient the danger to be hit by another car

R-response..an unconscious patient, an alert patient..it primarily to assess roughly the neurological status of a patient..a coma patient is a sign that the body shuts down because it needs to spare the oxygen used by the brain as the brain is the central, the main regulator and need to be rescued first in any ocassion in the body..it is programmed that way, as a way to self itself from further harm..

for the next step, as we observe each step, we intervene..because every delay in supplying oxygen to the brain, will cost a patient much further damage that can impaired his life later on..and in every step as the impairment is found, it will be intervene..

A-airway..before we start anything, we need to make sure the airway patency..there is no use to rescue and give oxygen to a person if the oxygen does not reaching the lungs..in another word, if u wanted to water plants, there is no use opening the tap with a blocked waterhose..no matter how full your water tank is, or no matter how much force u put to push the water in, u cant supply the water to the plant..unblock the waterhose first..

B-breathing..a normal human being can breathe in its own..without we realizing it, we are breathing every seconds..the aim of breathing is to inhale the oxygen in and get out the carbon dioxide..both gas will be bring by the blood to be supplied to the whole body in order for us to function normally..however, sometimes, breathing does not occur spontaneously, in this case, we need to force air to one's lungs..by means of mouth to mouth (ko niup napas dalam mulutnya, sak ada at least ckit air masok lung nya) or by ambubagging (in the hospital setting, ko kira micit dari cgek beg tok udara masok lung nya..kira ngepam oxygen la)..we do this mechanically as to buy time before the brain take its function back and breath normally and in the meantime also to prevent the lack of oxygen especially again to the brain as the brain will further regulate the whole body system..the oxygen is also needed by other vital organ..

C-circulation..the blood..carries oxygen to vital organs, as to make sure we function correctly..it is pumped by the heart..and every seconds of our life the heart NEVER stop beating..NEVER EVER it get tired..this fist-sized bundles of muscles works 24-7 to make sure the blood is delivered to every single inch of our body..and if it stops, one of the intervention we will do is CHEST COMPRESSION

The aim of chest compression is to mechanically pumped the heart from outside of the body..if the heart is approachable by the hands, for sure, we will literally pumped it directly with hands..however, this is impossible as the heart is protected by the rib cage..so, what do we do, we do CHEST COMPRESSION..mechanically kira ngepam jantung ya la..again, we wanted to buy time..keep someone alive..sik guna mok treat whatever penyakit yang nya ada time ya, mun in the first place nya sik idup pun..sekda heart beat, sik bernapas..and NO..bukan benda ya dipolah nak nyeksa manusia..memang sakit bah..memang sakit dada kita ditekan kedak ya..tp tujuan nya sik lain, kita maok prioritize apa yang penting..if penyakit ya adlh sakit biasa2 ajak, kita mesti try to the very last usaha mok keep nya alive, THEN intervene mok ubat penyakit nya nak..? mesti mok stay benapas, bok dapat ngubat nak? sayang bah mun takat demam biasa2 yang boleh diubat, juz kerana nya tiba2 sik benapas, mesti try mok soh nya benapas nak? lain la mun ya adalah end stage pun penyakit mun bak kata org, idup pun sik guna, bagey bangkai bernyawa..that's y a term called DNR or DO NOT RESUCITATE exists..for this kind of situation..and again..all of this decision is not doctors to make..it's the patient's and their family's..please, do understand, the medical staffs wanted the best for their patient..and please do not misunderstood us..but we will receive whatever swear, cacimaki dari patients, as our job is just to help..we stood lowly in front of our patient as whatever the consequence will be a burden they had to carry later on..for this, we do know sorry doesn't mean anything..tp trust us, we just wanted to help..but please, do understand whatever steps that we wanted to do..we just WANTED whats the BEST for our patient and only you can decide what IS the best for you and your family members..

AL-Fatihah
in loving memories:
Allahyarham Ajis
Allahyarham Affandi
Allahyarham Yasmin Ahmad
Allahyarham Ustaz Azri
Allahyarham Michael Jackson @ Mikael

..n ther's a story bout si payong itam part II

2009-07-31T04:03:00.000-07:00

marek ku nak madah hal payong itam nak..?

sik jadi..malas ku ngerepak hal nya..molah kemaik blog aku jak..cerita nya akan jadi panjang dan ridiculous..dari first hello nya ridiculous..baruk fon call..lom ktkorang nenga the next day ya nya molah meeting..agiklah bangang..

aku nak quote of the day ajak..(tok aku pun nyawab nya ariya..apa nya gago nanyak kenak kmkorg sik g cpc ya..dahlah nanyak dalam telepon..apakah bongok..kau bukan nak betemu kmkorg kah? bagus ko bekelaka face to face)

sleep? do u really think we will sleep?
(chuckle..tok ala2 chuckle yang ngegeh aie..)
u've clearly never been in our position? especially MY position..who had been struggling for more than 7 years of studying medicine..do u really think i wanna sleep? nope..sleeping is not a luxury..i am afraid at this point sleeping is a nightmare..u sleep and u wake up in the middle of the night thinking what haven't i read for today..thinking..what do i need to know to pass my exam..?

so, do u really think that i wanna sleep..?

so, Mr Rihanna pun terkepak2 sorang dirik ngulang benda sik tentuan..san sekda point..dan kakya terus nya meletak telepon..sekda manners terus!!

dah ko suka gilak nak makey hal 7 years ku..nahnah..ku pakey ku balit rah kau..puas ati ko..sik dapat ko melawan balit..the next day suma kata2 aku diputar belitnya..!! suma!! kecuali naktok..sibbait..mun ko gago mutar belit naktok nang ku sik tauk gik pa nak kata..

lupak madah..tauk sik apahal kmkorg prof exam riya ada distinction? duhal tek segal nya..harrus ku madah ngan dean faculty aku and seluruh miak faculty aku nya penyebab student distinction...punnnnndddet!! ko ngitong nak cgek ajak..

nok TIGA BELAS tok sik ko itong..?

dan nang bukan segal kau koh!!!!

.. n ther's a story bout stupid payong itam..bongok nya eh..

2009-07-30T10:07:00.000-07:00

..aku lom ada mood nak ngerepak..sbb ari dah akhir..esok aku ngerepak hal orang tua tok..
aku juz nak swear nya ajak..
time aku naep tok nang keja ku nyebut perkataan beep beep ajak..

keymann juak nya eh, keymann eh, nang suka nyusah org eh, keymann
..ko tauk sik, mun ko sik kelaka sekda orang madah ko bisuk koh..
balit ko negara kompun nun!!
go to h*ll with the buku..caqap-caqap..cerik pandey kelak melayu la..?
cerik penting
cerik concern
go to h*ll!!
dah kenjar..
cyes, pastok mekorang polah sik layan ajak..
bukan ko jadi examiner pun..?

and as from today he will be known as Mr Rihanna

..n ther's a story bout SALSO part II

2009-07-28T06:04:00.001-07:00

little did i know that i will go through another course of Sarawak Advanced Life Support In Obstetrics better known as SALSO..

last year it was on this date-26 and 27th of July 2008..and this year yesterday and today..
but as i was planning to work in Sarawak, i will be taking the same course when becomin a houseman..so wait for another post, ..n ther's a story bout SALSO part III

..friends come and go..children grow up and start walking..people around me married and have kids..

..and i am running in circle..

saba deng..ur time will come..Allah knows what's the best for His creations..keep on climbing the mountain..do not ever give up..

..n ther's a story bout aku kenak puji..wink ;o)

2009-07-21T10:02:00.000-07:00

hmm..this post happen few days ago..but i just hit the publish post button today..

i am well know for my inferiority complex, low self esteem, and also my anxiety problem..aku salu rasa serba kekurangan, rasa rendah dirik (i shud b..i am juz 150cm..eheh..) and kamboh..and all of this lead to the feeling of insecurity..kah the other way around..err..mana2 lah..ala2 eggs-chicken-eggs phenomenon..

okeh..let's talk bout my anxiety..
a few well-known stressors;

exams!!

presentations!!

having to talk to a large audience!!

mun sik besar pun sama juak..klah..
having to talk!!..at all?

facing a malignant lecturer!!

sik nampak malignant pun cikgu tok..? ;p

..and it presented as

palpitations

diarrhoea

..........................and the worst that i cannot hide from the world..................................

..hyperemesis..

what happen the night before that..i was in such a negative mood, i could almost hurt myself..nah, i won't kill myself, a wise friend once said, it's better to be homicidal than suicidal..(the reason being, mun ko munoh org, ko ada byk masa nok mintak keampunan la, nok taubat, tp mun ko suicide, terus straight masok neraka..) err...better jangan duak2 la..juz at times mind kita tok haywired bah..stoing kit..sik berapa nak straight..so, biasalah, in this state of mind if it juz a mildly affected mind, felt like wanted to be cheer up by people around you..mun severe aku memang social withdrawal..so, thanx to wireless technology (tang bunyi pondan belanda o..? ;p) and also facebook, where it makes possible k orang2 yang actually jaoh dari aku sak cerik2 dekat..the presence of people around me cheer me up..kunduran la..alex la..termasok lah ada cgek blog yang ku salu pegi mun nak maca org terkepak2 dengan jenakanya..blog ape ittewww..? blog tok bah..thanx sarol..

and that bring us to today's bedside teaching

venue:
Maternity Ward, Level 5, 3rd floor
lecturer:
Dr C
( a very..very..very..benign doctor..when he teaches u, u felt like a granpa telling his grandchildren bout the day he saved the country..yurp, very interesting story tambah ada ala2 kasih sayang but tend to be very soothing that it drives u to zzZZZ)
case:
premature prelabour rupture of membrane (PPROM)
apa lam layman nya owh, mun org nak beranak, nya lom cukup bulan, p dah pecah aek ketuban..

for the first time..i presented without that feeling of anxiety..not even a slightest palpitations..not nervous, cause in my mind, i know, i come here to learn (this time, "i know", usually aku try my very best mok padah ngan dirik sendirik and convince myself about all this, but it juz won't work..but for this time and this time only, sik pelu convince dirik sendirik..aku juz tauk..hmm)

as the result..i got lotssa great testimonial for today...

my lecturer: good (with such a pleasant face he said..) u covered the important points for this topic..blablabla (i was in a high after that..and smoothly answer his next question...)
my fellow colleagues (tok yang first time nangga aku present) : bes lah ktk, kak amsieime..i wish i can present like u..(if only kitakorang tauk when i was nervous nya jadi saaaaangat la terok..!!)
another colleagues: wow, that was so cool..sooOO cool..the way u presented.. (she really praise me dengan ikhlasnya..and i saw that admiration in her eyes..sparkly pun mata yang admired aku gila2..cehcehceh..perasan ya..)
and another five of them: u did great.. (and the synonyms......and muka yang sangat kaimpressed)

..wow, even i am very impressed with myself..i said every words clearly, flawlessly..i answered the management one by one in order and followed the sequence..i breathe through my nose (mun aku nebes terpaksa penafasan mulut aie..) my head is clear..i can even recalled years ago pun memory..and i do not even afraid to make mistakes..i am learning..no harm bah..mun dah jadi doctor yang pelu perfecto..the best of all is that i AM learning..

ney ndak dalam palakku..yah..dapat pun ko pzen, sik pelu gago2 nak muntah segala..yah..dapat pun jawab soalan..ko tauk sik, mun ko sik nebes dapat bah palak ko blurt out apa yang kau tauk..tok sik, asal pizen nang muntah lillah..kakya peloh nang alu abis basah..kakya ney bunyi ayat tunggang tebalit..maka tauk jawapan alu tekedu..nakkah sik bes cemya..u can do waaaay better dari ya bah..it's juz in your mind..and only kau can ubah ya..

anyway, i stat lasnite with such a negative mode..changed to such a positive attitude..sleep deeply with a relax mind..wake up with a calm mind..and go through the day with a bright smile..and finished it off with such a happiness...bes o mun kita berpikiran positif..tapi aku tok positif sekali sekala jak..dan in that once in a while memang aku appreciate that positivity..sik payah force into mind pun..but being me it is juz rarely happen..and aku terpaksa sentiasa try remind mind aku to stay positif..trust me, everytime aku negative, jiwa kosong or kacau, aku nang sentiasa paksa mind aku mok stay positif..bagi orang yang sik dapat paham, aku sik salah kan kitakorang..bagi orang yang loudly say, "sapa nyuroh nya negatif gilak..?", aku sik dapat nak suroh kitak orang paham..it is juz me..

(tp ada juak org saja2 MIP camtok koh..)

last but not least..aku kenak puji aritok..bes ehs..bes ehs..jarang bah aku kenak puji sepanjang aku involve in medical tok..in OBGyn jak..last year's bst and exam..pun kenak puji..almost distinction given by lecturer yang paling strict di alam maya..(p/s: nya adalah Head of Department rah SGH cya..camney ku sik bangga..)eheh..tapi almost jerr..last minute pun silap langkah..sayang o..?

..n ther's a story bout mini-bobo and the crane

2009-07-21T07:31:00.000-07:00

huhu..come back..balit la..huhu..
satu bunga..dua bunga..tiga bunga...............................

..n ther's a story bout baby..

2009-07-21T05:43:00.000-07:00

nope..not that little cuddly and cute mini you..nope..not that small packaage homosapiens..nope..not that..

this is about BABY..

*aq sik berann nok bermull lebb..aq taqq add orr datt ke citt membacc ceritt inn..buqq aqq matt bah..orr lay..sik aq berann..dill aj la ap aq dah tull di sitt..*

gambar tok sebab cdak kunduran nk alah2 post lagu..aku ney maok kalah..aku maok juak ada post lagu..smk nak o?nyiehehe..

p/s: sapa2 yang tauk maksud ku tok tauk la..walaupun bunyi nya tang hitting around the bushes..err..which is exactly what i am doing..nak nama gik kita orang melayu bah..nganok orang sebelah kentut berbau gik gago berpantun..nak? nak? tang padah jak kentut ko bau..susah bah..orang melayu tok sensitip..kelak alu gago digubal undang2..bak kata seorang menteri "saya tidak pernah kutuk dia bodo..saya kutuk dia kurang bijak sahaja"..and we do take Malaysian Politic seriously..haddoh..hmm..yeah, right..

..n ther's a story bout eyes..

2009-07-13T05:13:00.000-07:00

they say eyes are the window through everything..org melayu madah, dari mata turun ke hati..even in medical point of view, there are a lot of diseases that can be viewed simply by looking in the eyes..diseases of the liver by jaundice..hypertension and diabetes mellitus severity can be reflected by doing simple fundoscopy through the eyes..mun lam medical siap ada speciality dalam eye gik ya..mun organ lain ney ada..maybe ada, sub sub speciality lah..surgery sub nya general surgery, sub nya agik GIT sub nya agik anus (jobo) sub nya agik anal canal (lubang jobo)..sampey lah juak..so again, we come back to eyes..as little as an almond but with this little organ, we can view the whole world..kagum o ciptaan tuhan..?aku pn entry kali tok tang ala2 dokumentari ada juak..no, again..juz a test i did in facebook..

what do my eyes say about me

hmm..org salu kata aku transparent..sangat mudah di baca..that goes to my besties..but often i choose not to express my feelings with people i'm not comfortable with..and appeared happy and juz smile..tp i am quiet and shy..? macam sik jak..huhu..sik tauk eh..apa2 lah..it is juz aquiz anyway..but i will be agree macam org gila mun nya madah aku ada low self esteem..aok eh..ya bok bena..

k..on a different notes..this is what my younger brother, luguk got for his eyes..

mun gk mudak..lives had nothing to loose..aku jelleszzz..

.. n ther's a story bout a virgo..

2009-07-12T03:56:00.000-07:00

a virgo

izit..? bena tek..? juh kita ala2 analyze..
dominant in relationships..bulak..aku yang sik ekot ajak..at one time aku sik tauk pun kmk duak still in a relationship kah or dah sik tauk apa status..sexy, hmm..aoklah juak..sbb ada org madah body aku kedak meganfox..iyeddeh..wewwit..bangga oi ;p never in my life somebody make that kind of statement..salu suma komplen macam2..hmm..and for other qualities, i also do not agree that i am a great kisser..with this defect overbite teeth of mine..but it's my trademark though..and i am proud of it..huhu..

ok..coz kunduran had requested the aries profile to be posted here..so, this is aries..

an aries

waddaya think kundur? sama sik..? nang chub on the loose la bunyi tok.. ;p

..n ther's a story about lesson number 6..

2009-07-04T10:22:00.000-07:00

hmm..white horse..

C

A

F
suppose to play it like this:

but bcoz i am a noob so it is modified to my need..eheh..
G

..n ther's a story bout amsieime in the middle..

2009-07-02T08:00:00.000-07:00

took a quiz in facebook..tentang ank nomo berapa and personalitinya..cemya2 la..as the second daughter, this is what i get:

presenting...amsieime in the middle......drumroll......

i would say..they got some part right..

and k anak lain..
the eldest:

the youngest:

an only child:

..n ther's a story of the second half of 2009

2009-06-30T10:25:00.000-07:00

30 th june 2009..the birthday of one of my besties, kimora (bukan nama sebenar.. :P )
so, i wann a wish him a happy and fabulous 26th buttday..ahax..

okok..back to the original post..
today 30th of June marks the end of half of the year 2009..and tomorrow, 1st of July welcomes the 2nd half of 2009..the classical questions we asked ourselves:

i) what have i achieved for the past half of the year..?

NOTHING..
other than a failure in my study..in relationship..the first half of the year is a total mess and a major failure for me
that's the old me would say..

the repolished, rebooted me would say:

i have achieved quite a lot this year..let the countdown begins...

( i can't remember the chronological order.so i juz gonna mumble randomly..)

i) i have managed to sit and experience the second professional exam
ii) once i almost been given the distinction mark..but i ruined it..my best achievement and the best way to start a year..
iii) i have learnt the true face of a jerk
iv) i gained a new family..the seaworld club~ geez..help a lot in my study..
v) our family's financial problem improved, from less than zero to now at least 10%
vi) i shared my happiness with my family and friends and that adds up my list for more than 50%
vii) titzzz been offered KPLI..referred previous post
viii) my sis had been offered to work in the government's sector; securing a job for her
ix) jell had been engaged..nope..mun betekol bukan engage nak? hoho..yeah, we do know that she's gonna be getting married end of this month but still an engagement is a reason for happiness
x) the happiest moment; a visit from my guardian angel

this list is not complete yet..i'll add things to it later as i can recall things..there is so much to be thankful for this year..i wanna thank the Al-Mighty for all his blessings towards me, my family and my friends..Alhamdulillah..

..n ther's a story bout my guardian angel chapter IV..

2009-06-30T10:19:00.000-07:00

my guardian angel..
i was so blessed to be given the best gift ever..

..you..

..n ther's a story of a fon conversation between two besties..

2009-06-30T09:37:00.000-07:00

so..this is a conversation between me and one of my besties, alex..bukan nama sebenar.. ;p

amsieime : i dunno whether i can do it..i mean..working and all..even to get my degree is an impossible mission..and i do believe that i belong to those idiots u said getting a medical degree and have no idea what are they doing..md for nothing..those idiots yang pemalas and berkira..cyesly awk..

alex : tak..tak..awk dengar sini..nope..u r not one of them..trust me..working and studying are two different things..

amsieime : awk tak tau awk..kte..? and my knowledge..arrgh..!!

alex : hey, hey, listen here..kte pun..i started working with no knowledge awk..

amsieime : u..? no knowledge? and u passed ur professional exam..on a first attempt..o god, that is an insult to me..even someone with no knowledge can pass it..that is a total insult to me..i..feel insulted awk..

alex : no..no..awk..medical degree is overated..passing the exam is overated..it is definitely not a way to assess somebody being a good doctor or not..

amsieime : it is for people around me..?

alex : ok..ok..lemme try this..ok kte tnye awk..

amsieime : hmm..ok..

alex : ape G6PD?

amsieime : it's glucose-6-phosphate-d something..hah..ape dia? (in my heart i felt insulted..benda simple pun aku sekpat nak finish D stands for what..)

alex : ok..ok..at least u know what it is..at least u do think of the glucose thingy..awk tau ape HO yang keje ngan kte kate..(this particular HO had been messing around with him for so many times..pemalas nak leput..always leave works to others..sellfish..) G6PD..dengan kompidennye dia jawab, Gravida 6 Para D..what the hell was that?

amsieime : err...(inside my head, i was thinkin..maybe that was an honest mistake..a mistake after long hours of working or a post-call day..or maybe..nobody makes that mistake..nobody..)

alex : tu baru satu..pastu dia..letak diagnosis for a neonate..pre-eclampsia..tak ke ridiculous tu?

amsieime : ...

(terdiam..aok..nang ridiculous...)

alex : okok..awk..kalo pasang branula kan, jarum dia p mane..?

amsieime : proximally..(in my head..of course..soalan bonus kah apa..)

alex : ade je HO kat sini dengan kompidennye wat distally..

amsieime : err..ok..

alex : so, do not tell me u r insulted..kte tau awk..dan kte tau kte..maybe we do not have the best of knowledge, but we do not make that kinda mistakes..the kind of person yang ade good-for-nothing MD..menyusahkan orang ade ar..and kte tau awk akan buat keje awk betol2 and bukan main lepas tangan menyusahkan org macam sesetengah org kat sini..and u will do ur work right..so trust me..u can do it..

u r my stressor...u r my protective factor...ok..u were rite..i was kind of hard on myself..all those look-at-the-bright side..who am i kidding..? all those things are the bullshits i keep on telling everybody..i convinced them to convince me..but hell no..it ain't work..yurp, at this moment, i do not matter of anything else..everyday facebooking, playing games, working hardly on my guitar strumming, none of it involved studying..nope..it is not procrastinating..this time it is simply, me..me at my lowest point..i've lost all my will power, enthusiasm and i had enough..aku semangat gila nak exam prof riya..i gave my two hundred percents for that exam..i broke down not once, not twice..i can't even recognize myself when i look in the mirror..how do people get up from that kind of fall? SATC time~~

i had a choice. i could slink off the runway and let my inner model die of shame, or i could pick myself up, flaws and all, and finish,

and that's just what i did,

because when real people fall down in life, they get right back up and keep on walking

so this time i just wanna do it right..but i just can't have that same energy that i had for my last exam..so i am just gonna do it..yurp..Just Do It..the way amsieime does..

..n ther's a story bout rezeki..

2009-06-24T22:34:00.000-07:00

rezeki..datang nya dari Allah Ta'ala..rezeki..antara ujian terbesar ummat Muhammad s.a.w..rezeki ckit ujian juak..nangga kita mampu sik saba..mampu sik nahan dirik dari molah dosa

talking bout rezeki..recently, a friend of mine been offered to undergone Kursus Perguruan Lepas Ijazah (KPLI)..she's one of my besties..and now, officially..i am the only one here in Kuching..hmm..what actually my post is about today..owh..yeah, it is about rezeki..she's been applying for different jobs and suddenly after been accepted to this course, she was offered another two jobs; one of is a guranteed work and stay in Kuching..rezeki..which one she choose? KPLI..the one that she doesn't have the heart for..however it's the one that guranteed her a future..no matter what she chose, i am happy for her..kemain riya susah sekda kerja..sekali bila ada terus tiga datang sekali..and btw, suma report on last monday..

so, what u need to get a job is to be offered another job..right..?

..n ther's a story bout..blood..

2009-06-20T01:05:00.000-07:00

watched this movie a couple of weeks ago..skipped a few movie review aldy coz not in the mood of writing..nice movie..very game-like camera angle..err..i can't really recall the minor complain that i wanna say bout this movie..but overall, it is nice..like it mainly coz it's a vampire story and the girl's a hero..a bit feminist of me..anygay, a question remains,

what's with japanese men and their girl in high school uniform fantasy.....? it's also shown in this movie..and of course not to forget nurses' uniform..or nurses themselves..sekda dlm movie tok lah tapi..

btw, i hate nurses..period..

rating time..since titzz (sound dirty err) slept halfway through the movie, th rating's gotta b low..

drumroll.....

..n ther's a story bout..a job..

2009-06-18T03:27:00.000-07:00

this is a quote from the infamous SATC

you men have no idea what we're dealing with down there..teeth placement and jaw stress and suction and gag reflex..and all the while bobbing up and down moaning and trying to breathe through our noses. ez?

they don't call it a job for nothing.

mun paham..paham la..mun sik, sik ku pandey nak eksepelain koh.. :P
bwahahaha..

..n ther's a story bout..the week of the exes..part oNe

2009-06-17T07:19:00.000-07:00

this is not an entry that u wanna read with full stomach, or u'll end up vomitting it out..so, u can skip this entry..it's juz craps..about my love life..

my love life is a mess..recently i had involve in a relationship best described as "a short love story that ends badly...." quoted from kunduran

so, for this entry, let's call this week.....drumrolll.......

the week of the exes

quoted from the infamous SATC, carrie bradshaw once said

when a relationship dies, do we ever really give up the ghost, or are we forever haunted by the spirits of relationships past?

y? owh y? all my exes called me this week..for god knows y?hmm..ok..every breakup i've been (except for the recent one), i did it nice and respectfully..we remained friends..so, every now and then we would call each other to say hi, and check each other's out; we exchanged story bout everyone..bout everything; families, studies, works, love..everything..(however, one of them always had this hidden agenda..for god knows what..really, something smells fishy..but i can't make enemies with this other one..he's gonna be my boss someday and i do not need a boss to hate and bullied me..)..so we can even laugh bout matters that happenned between us..(at that time it wasn't so funny tho..i wasn't even funny..)

so before that..lemme tell u briefly bout me..and guys...

the first crush was in high school..and eversince then, i knew that i am straight :P okok..get serious..i've dated a few guys..been in three..no..four relationships; with one serious relationship..and fall in love once..(nope..they are not the same one)

...to be continued

..n ther's a story bout busy bee..

2009-06-15T05:57:00.000-07:00

currently as i am typing,i am on messenger with three of my very good friends..

friend a) discussing bout medicine:

about a case; real case..and how to proceed? (yeah, she's a doctor, for two years already, but of course medical students know more..coz we read all the things all the time,and as human, they do forget..and if a doctor did not encounter some of the case, they'll forget bout the case coz they have so many other thing to remember)..aku pn sik tauk kenak ku ngerepak tok..aok..nyawa org di tangan kmkorg..but..kmkorg pn human..err..terasa macam sik layak madah cemya..
rasa play house ai..coz all result come back normal..what did we miss..? cey..weee..konon..

friend b) discussing bout relationship

on how to trust the other partner la..
how to draw a line; takut ngongkong..? or sbb sayang..? or jeles..?

friend c) about blogging

seriously i forgot that one website that smartly arranged to teach from scratch how to do ur own website..nang k total noobs..and nya ada tempat k experiment juak..smart aie..

okok..in this situation, mesti ada sorg yg direply lambat nak?

coba tekak sapa ku reply paling cepat, sapa ku reply agak lambat..?

friend a paling cepat..sbb bila nya hal stadi, and case ya acute, so aku kenak mok cepat jawab nk? and study pn mesti engkah paling priority k aku bah..

nomo duak..friend c coz nya technical..something yg aku dapat pk cepat sbb jwpnnya 1+1=2..juz mok pk camney teknik 1 bila ditambah ngan 1 jadi duak..pk step..

and least dan paling lambat, friend b sbb it is bout relationship..i have to be careful..and i have to consider who my friend is..in person..and not judge from my own perspective..per se..and currently i am also not sure how to recover from my own recent broken relationship..and..currently i am seeing a shrink.. *wink*

okok..enough bout me..entry tok main point nya nak ngeso kebolehan aku multitasking..wahaha..sbb aku still gik chat ngan cdak..

but the question remains..
adakah mun aku concentrate ngan mana2 tugas tok akan lebeh bagus hasilnya..?
or
sekda beza..?

cyesly la..slow juak ku reply cdak..kurang berkualiti la dari segi kelajuan..

..n ther's a story about lesson number 5..

2009-06-11T09:41:00.000-07:00

just back from watching BLOOD..review bout it later..now,now..

how to strum a guitar?

my immortal

the basic

down, down, up, up, down, up, up, down up..

now..the chord..

A dunno what

C#minor

or if u can't really hold it the way it is, the easier version would be

whc will sound a bit less..where the upper one sounds fuller..

ok..next step would be..
F#minor

D major (we've learnt this before)

E major

and time now is 3 am..and i have bed side teaching at 9 am tomorrow morning..ok, gotta hit the pillow..gudnite~

..n ther's a story bout..me..too skinny me..

2009-06-09T23:48:00.000-07:00

i kno i'm underweight..i kno i eat unhealthily..i kno i'm too skinny..i kno it all

that's y i am flatteted..VERYVERY flattered when someone acknowledged me as FAT..

i've been eating like a hungryhorse during my holiday..food cruising by the day.. and lotssa bbq-ing and steamboating at night, this holiday had gained me big kilos..it doesn't show but my failure to put my jeans on prooving that i gained weight..a fren even akcnowledged my weight gaining..

..and i am flattered..VERY! sangat bangga..i even tell a few frens bout it..but they seems disagree..i do not mind actually.. but then i hits me..

i sounded like UGIH rite..telling out loud that i am fat eventhough i am not..people can misunderstood me..addoh eh..sikmoklah setaraf UGIH?

now the class start, and i started to LOA..and ther goes extra weight that i've gain recently..damn!! me gaining weight is a hardwork k?

p/s: i weighed myself juznow..it's 45.5 kg!! wow!! paling tggi penah ku achieve!! normally i weighed 42 kg only..o gosh!! bangga eh.. *wink*

..n ther's a story about my specialty..

2009-06-08T12:07:00.000-07:00

The medical specialty for you is…. Dermatology

Dermatology is the best of all specialties. As a
dermatologist, you will be in one of the most competitive and
restrictive fields in medicine. Patients will flock to you from all
over for you to give them aloe and cortisone cream. You will swear to
your non-dermatologist colleagues that the reason you went into the
field is because you find rashes fascinating, you liar.

To find out what specialty best fits your unique personality,
go to:

What Medical
Specialty Is For You?

okok..i got the best grade in dermatology..that was A-..hmm..but then, to get specialty in Dermatology..?!!! am I insane? nang nak leput juak..nak dapat MD gik stgh nyawa ku?!!

..n ther's a story bout megan fox..

2009-06-08T11:29:00.001-07:00

this particular entry will be written in red..as to attract readers of how important the issue is..and the most important issue will be written in a bigger font..

u do realize how sexy megan fox is right..? and then the dream is shattered when an article comes out and revealed that she is truely a she-male..ouchch..aku ulang..ada urang madah megan fox tok sebenarnya "akaaaak"..sik ko beliang nenga statement tok..it is also said that the only two persone who know this is non other than the-twins-who-smile-awkwardly, marie-kate and ashley...however, the source is unreliable..

on the other hand, when transformer 1 kenak tayang mula2 marek, (the pre-op small-bewbies-proportionate-to-body-megan-fox) somebody made a statement,

mie, body megan fox remind aku ngan body kau la..sama aih..

wewwit..ko aderr..? (ketuyyyyy..?)

..n ther's a story about lesson number 4..

2009-06-05T07:42:00.000-07:00

whoa..my frens are here in kuching and i have a packed social calendar..so here goes, the lesson for today..

D minor and D major

..n ther's a story bout the kiss..

2009-06-05T04:51:00.000-07:00

a quiz that i took on facebook..and this is the result

yeah meh..? this is the best time to use this

..n ther’s a story bout face and hair

2009-06-04T10:52:00.001-07:00

..this is an article that i got from a fren, Three..an article she took from here..

The Best and Worst Hairstyles for Your Face Shape

Round face: the best
Simple lines with as little volume at the sides as possible, like this simple mid-length bob, are the best choice for round faces. Ginnifer Goodwin gets it right.

Round face: the worst
This center part emphasizes a full forehead, and the volume at the sides widens the cheeks. Clarkson would look much slimmer with volume at the crown and sleek sides.

Square face: the best
The most famous square face in the world knows to keep the hair soft and flowing, with volume only at the crown. While hair should be sleek, it shouldn't hug the face and flatten its contours.

Square face: the worst
Heavy bangs typically exaggerate a square face shape. Pulling the rest of the hair back makes Jessica Alba's face look even more square, flat and ungraceful.

Oval face: the best
When you're blessed with a symmetrical oval face, you should show it off. Halle Berry's simple feminine updo lets her face do the talking.

Oval face: the worst
Compared with her simple updo, this tousled, face-hugging style with a lot going on manages to make even one of the world's most beautiful oval faces look ordinary.

Heart face: the best
A heart-shaped face like Christina Ricci's can look like a work of art with the right hairstyle like this simple bob. Keep the bangs narrow (width-wise) in order to minimize a broad forehead. Length should be chin-length or longer with no volume on the sides.

Heart face: the worst
Heart-shaped faces should avoid styles that emphasize a bare forehead and open up at the sides, emphasizing the width of the face. All you see here is Ricci's forehead. We think Christina should stick with the bangs.

Diamond face: the best
A diamond face is an oval with angles. Almost any style works for this shape, but soft draping bangs and gentle sweeping lines are great for countering the shape's sharp angles. This bob is one of Rihanna's best looks.

Diamond face: the worst
Diamond shapes should stick with graceful, flowing styles that avoid volume at the top and sides. This look is all top volume, which gives Rihanna a bit of a "Conehead" look.

Oblong face: the best
The oblong shape is possibly the most challenging face shape to style. Kelly Rowland gets it right with long side-swept bangs and volume at the sides, which together work to create the illusion of facial fullness while minimizing face length.

Oblong face: the worst
While bangs can work for oblong shapes, they should be soft and preferably angled to help create the illusion of roundness. Stick-straight bangs with stick-straight sides just flatten and further elongate Liv Tyler's face in this photo.

i do not even know what is my face's shape? i am sure it is not triangle or such..with wide forehead and rili square and prominent jaw..what is my face's shape..opinion needed..is it square..?

source: http://shine.yahoo.com/channel/beauty/the-best-and-worst-hairstyles-for-your-face-shape-460581/

..n ther's a story bout the climb..

2009-06-03T19:38:00.000-07:00

Miley Cyrus-The Climb

my besfren asked not so long ago bout this song..juz watch it juznow at [V] channel..i wanna dedicate this song to me and my besfren..it is for us and for all the people in the world that are struggling to achieve whatever their goal are right now..

..ain't about how fast we get there
ain't about what's waiting on the other side
it's the climb..

The Climb lyrics
Songwriters: Alexander, J; Mabe, J;

I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Somebody's gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

Keep on moving, keep climbing
Keep the faith, baby
It's all about, it's all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa..

..n ther's a story about selamat ari gawai~

2009-06-01T10:11:00.000-07:00

today is 1st Jun 2009..so wanna wish gayu guru gerai nyamai..selamat hari gawai for all who celebrate it..this year, there is no visiting though..huhu..

on a totally different topic, it sucks being reminded that i am still a student..so, starting tomorrow, i'm gonna start "rebooting" ~~my kapal titanic pecahrebak anyut~~ err..my room into a thinking chamber again..

..and my study start tomorrow..!!

JUST DO IT !!

..n ther's a story about lesson number 3..

2009-05-31T23:46:00.000-07:00

chords i learned today

A minor C F G

..and the song it makes..

fiona~~~~

ahahahaha..

..n ther's a story about lesson number 2..

2009-05-31T07:44:00.000-07:00

tuning a guitar..the first thing u need to do..the only musical instrument that i've ever learn all my life is the recorder, angklung and tamborine..ahahaha..as to find the right key for my E key for the guitar is by using my bro's recorder..so, among other basic things that one need to know is:

to tighten a string is to increase the note
and to loosen a string is to lower the note

it's physic..eheh

at 1.59 am..finally i managed to tune in my guitar..e'eh, "my" kerr..? ;p just named mine lerr..

so, next, it's time to..drink some water and grab aek sejok rah debah..and mouse from abang's room..coz my touch pad is driving me craziee..argh..my lappie need to be reformat..but then again, ther are too much stuff inside and i cannot find anywhere to dump it temporarily..aishks..

..n ther's a story about lesson number 1..

2009-05-30T09:01:00.000-07:00

E A D G B E

memorize that my dear

..n ther's a story about me..superficially..

2009-05-28T07:36:00.000-07:00

you know how at the back of every books there are brief reviews, comments and testimonials given by others..err..what do they call that uh? erm...whatever..this is the book that i published..the title.....

"my medical degree"

"kak amsieime, ktk adalah idola kmk" -Miss Hayati

"k.amsieime, kmk kagum ngan ktk.yelah, ktk tabah. kmk x tahan nak belaja lama di sitok" -miss Pyedah

"kak amsieime, ktk tabah" -emmy

"maybe your inner perception, cognition, and true feelings are the opposite... but its your behaviour that is maintaining your current function and perseverance. but my HONEST opinion lah... KAUlah paling functional at this moment..dalaman maybe porak peranda... tapi luaran ko still maintain function" - THREE

superficially man..superficially...

..n ther's a story bout my guardian angel chapter III..

2009-05-26T09:08:00.000-07:00

dear my guardian angel,

haven't heard from you for a while..how i miss you..life's taken another detour for me..another mountain to climb..another hole to jump..

my guardian angel,
u weren't here, but i am sure u support me..i am sure as hell..i wanted to graduate this year..that is why passing my prof exam is so important..u said u will come if i graduate? should i graduate next year, will u still be attending it..? i know how a failure i am..i am so sorry that i disappoint u..

my guardian angel,
i rili need to held tight here..and it felt so alone now..so many people around..yet, i am alone..i know, i have everyone elses' support but in this boat i am alone..in this boat, it is juz me..in this boat, i am one-man army..in this boat, i need to rise myself from the dead ashes..in this boat..and i need u my guardian angel..i juz need u..to keep my faith when it is shaking on this loose ground..i need u, desperately..i need u..

i just need my guardian angel..

..n ther's a story about my musical interest~

2009-05-26T06:27:00.000-07:00

remember my previous post from

and i quote

yurp..dah ada guitar!! u go girl~ *big grin*

..n ther's a story bout questionsssSS..

2009-05-25T08:55:00.000-07:00

Starting time: 11.14 pm
Name : amsieime
Sisters : 2
Brothers : 4
Shoe size : 5,5 1/2, rarely 6..
Height : 150 cm..aok pendek..gago!!

Where do you live :
my lovely house~

Have you ever been on a plane :
last...time nak g elektif..nama gik nang mmg diam ctok ajak..

Swam in the ocean :
las..bila o..? lamak dah ehs..

Fallen asleep at school :
ha..ha ha ha ha..sampey almost gugok..sibbait ada fit cover line..haha

Broken someone’s heart :
err..entah..sik tauk..ada kali..coey mun da~

Fell off your chair :
ALMOST dalam tahun tok..sibbait!! huhu..thx ct ngan fit..

#

Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call :
err...

Saved e-mails :
aku mmg sik delete email ku..termasok lah emel invitation to CPC by TINWIN..huhu

What is your room like :
hmm..bak kata anak buah ku..
*dengan bunyi tilo*
anjang, melampa bilit ktk o..?

huhu

What’s right beside you:
bobo~

What is the last thing you ate :
ikan pusuk ngan bubo~ nyam~

#Ever had...

Chicken pox :
Dah.. sekali ngan dik badik lain..secara berjema'ah..haha

Sore throat :
Las two weeks minak salah ku

Broken nose :
sik eh

Do you believe in love at first sight :
err..somehow i do not think it's love..it is attraction..?

Like picnics :
YES!! esp dgn org yang betol!!

#Who was/were...

The last person you danced with :
dance..? sik penah pun..? hu~

Last made you smile :
err..capiq..nya molah stunt ngan stokin nya tadik

You last yelled at :
capiq...berolah eh..

#Today did you...

Talk to someone you like :
i like as in...?

Kissed anyone :
capiq..ya pn nya sik suka..huhu

Get sick :
alhamdulillah..sihat jak aku aritok..

Talk to an ex :
today? nope..lamak da sik..

Miss someone :
hmm..aok..huhu

#

Who do you really hate:
hate? currently? sekda..

Do you like your hand-writing :
aku suka..org sik suka..

Are your toe nails painted :
sik..

Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in :
sitie's kot..dah salu overnight umah nya..

What color shirt are you wearing now :
skin colour.. ;p

#

Are you a friendly person :
ntah..aku tauk aku bukan the first to say hi..but i do have lots of friends!!

Do you have any pets :
currently, no..dolok ada..mohammad pusak..lekak nya mati alu sekda..huhu..
jap..leh sik ku juz anggap lebit duak ikok ya pet aku..boi ngan gigirl..hu~ miss them..

Do you sleep with the TV on :
haha..mestilah penah..

What are you doing right now :
sepatutnya aku polah cwu..tp macam malas..so polah tok lok la..haha

Can you handle the truth :
not rili..u have to break the truth wimme dgn cara yg pling lembut..i think only one person knows how to..ya pun end up nya akan juz tapok that truth..like he owez said, "kte nak jage hati awk" :(

Are you closer to your mother or father:
ntah..both kot?

Do you eat healthy :
Nope..i dun eat the green stuff

#

Do you still have pictures of you & your ex :
ada..haha..gamba mek tiga capiq..the only gamba aku ngannya..

If you’re having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to :
who? kah where?

Are you loud or quiet most of the time :
quiet..haha..yeah, right..

Are you confident :
NOPE!!

#

5 things I was doing 10 years ago
when i was sixteen, hmm..what did i do?
1) baruk pandey embak motosikal
2) olmost eksiden tergelincir debah bas..gilalah!!
3) kenak rampas chess set sbb main lebeh masa tdo!! i hate that cikgu till today!!
4) makan megi dalam petang..megi tomyam..ngan ijah..haha..
5) err..pa gik o? aku sik ingat la..eh aok, sneak out tgh malam jalan2 di sekolah..kenak la aku sik penakut time ya?

#

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire
1) SHOES!! yang memang killing pun shoes!!
2) fill my wardrobe with designer's outfit..even benda yang aku sikkan pakey..juz utk collection.. (yeah, keep on dreaming bayebh)
3) aoklah..beli harta la..beli umah..keta..
4) i wud pimp my kancil (apa salah beli baru o?)
5) btw, bapakku akan terimak half of the money..half kah? three-quarter lah..sbb in the end nya juak yg berik belanja ngan aku..haha..time tok padah cemya..maok kelak berebut reta koh..huhu..

#

5 of my bad habits
1) social phobia
2) low self esteem
3) sgt cepat anxious
4) mun ada keja suka nak molah lasminute
5)

#

5 places I've lived/living
1) umah kampung tok
2) pindah belakang masja
3) pindah balit umah kampung tok..
4) diam labuan
5) diam kenari (UNIMAS)
6) and diam kolej medic for three days..haha

finished: 11.56pm

..n ther's a story bout me..living in today..

2009-05-25T05:48:00.000-07:00

live life ong (as my previous 2005's blog's title)..aku pecayak dengan rezeki Allah Ta'ala..that's what my principle used to be..

i know i changed..i rili know that..can i just change into myself again..reboot it..?

the i-did-not-care-what-the-fuck-you're-thinkin-of-me..?

things i wanna do during this six-month "extra" of my unpaid life..the 6 months...i am going to use it very wisely..

i) getting a guitar.. (the hardest part..ahaha..)
ii) learn how to play a guitar..
iii) write songs..? nope..too much..
iv) learn chinese (how? how? i used to date a chinese guy, had a chinese guy as a bestfriend (but he basoh his berak with water loh..kira chinese juak meyh..?) and still i only know two words, mei you..?) argh!! 6 months to learn chinese..? am i crazy..? not..where there is a will there is a way..

so...do i wanna compromise my study? no!! hell no!! but this time i promise myself that i WILL NOT CRY!! no more crying during study..stadi yg lepak2 dan rilex2..juz like good old days..

ok? got it? and i do not f#*king care what happen around me..i can't do that..this goes especially to my beloved family..so, my behated (adakah perkataan tok..?) brother-in-law, so now i grant you the permission to beat my sis, be as immature and as ridiculous and crossed-eye as you want..I DO NOT F#*KING CARE!!!

err..not their problem actually..it's me that take every problem waaay as my problem..as if dah aku bingong alu problem ya solve..sekda kaitan aku bingong sik dgn problem ya jd ok kah sik..so, a note to myself, butt-off the problem please..

..n ther's a story bout Star Trek

2009-05-22T21:10:00.000-07:00

last night i went to watch Star Trek..The main reason i watched it was because Zachary Quinto is on it..Ok, I know, lame..but then again I do love Star Trek..It is just not this Star Trek..I am crazy bout the other Star Trek, Star Trek:The Next Generation..

Now now..the nice thing about this movie is it injects the element of jokes in the middle of maximum adrenaline pumping..!! how a genius that idea is..? however, having said that, a die-hard-fan of star trek would be irritated with the jokes-comical element..and Sylar, he is a natural-born Spock!! it is a must watch movie..!! and of course, they have a way an appearance of the real Spock - Leonard Nimoy !! FTW !! ahhaha..he's featured as Spock Prime..the older version of Spock..That straight bang sure fits him best..

ok, rating time..i would want to just give 3 and half stars, but because it makes me, fitz and tidzz laughed, so I would want to grant it... drum rolllzzz......

I watched Wolverine lastweek and haven't rite anything bout it coz..err..juz not in the mood..been planning to watch Angels and Demons but as I already read the books it would be a dissapointment to watch it in the movie..they will sure withdraw lots of important stuff..nangga lah cmney, aku nangga sik..

till then, Live long and prosper..ahahahaha

..n ther's a story bout the future..

2009-05-20T07:13:00.000-07:00

in regards of the recent event, it got me thinking..
how did it comes to this..?how in the world, a well-known first ranker in the class end up the bottom of the hierarchy..?how in the world an achiever become a struggler? how did a once got it all now venting with a life supporter and hoping to live? how did it comes to this..?

..and here i quote from an infamous season finale of grey's anatomy..

When something begins
you generally have no idea how it's going to end..

we spend our whole lives worrying about the future, planning for the future, trying to predict the future, as if figuring out will somehow cushion the blow, but the future is always changing. The future is the home of our deepest fears, and our wildest hope

..but one thing is certain. the future is never the way we imagined it..

..n ther's a story bout how i wish yesterday was just a nightmare..

2009-05-14T22:46:00.000-07:00

i wake up in the morning..hoping yesterday was just a dream..a nightmare..

...and it is not..it is real..

..n ther's a story about professional exam Day 3-osce

2009-05-07T08:35:00.000-07:00

and i held a penis with a pair of forceps..huhu..

what was i thinking? ther's an osce station on how to insert CBD on a male patient..

FORCEPS!! abis loloi org laki ya..huhu..

..n ther's a story about professional exam Day 2-mcq and baq

2009-05-06T03:24:00.000-07:00

it's hard..it's hard..

sigh~

..n ther's a story about professional exam Day 1-meq

2009-05-04T08:25:00.000-07:00

the questions for today's meq:

medicine=infective endocarditis
surgery=peripheral arterial disease
paediatrics=post-streptococcal acute glomerulonephritis
ob-gyn=cervical carcinoma
orthopaedics=prolapsed intervertebrae disc

..n ther's a story about exam sik lamak gik mie!! stadi!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-04-23T03:10:00.001-07:00

as per title..

doakan kmkorg suma pass exam prof tok..the ultimate finish line..god i need this..

p/s: later, after my exam..i'm gonna rite sth..a long post..a very long post..it's about butterfly effect..nyiahaha..till then..i'm hibernating..err..i mean from all this world wide web thingy..wanna concentrate three-hundred-and-eighty-one percents on my study..ahaha..

..amsieime is in serious study mode..
boh kaconya :P

..n ther's a story about me missing my mom

2009-04-19T10:13:00.001-07:00

recently, i've been involved in sth..quite a big thing that give a big impact on my life..let's not talk bout that..because it's...........boooOOOOooowring..

ok..what i wanna tell is it seems like forever that this kind of problem comes to my life..and recently i realized that lastime it happened, i talked to my mom bout it..and my mom would say, "dun worry, everything's gonna b ok......."

that one line..a line that my mom told me everytime i involved in anything, it really calmed me down..so comforting..and i miss it..i miss my mom..i miss getting assured that EVERYTHING's gonna b ok..it feel so secured coming from my mom..owh i miss her..i miss her so much..i'm gonna face my big exam soon and i wish she would be here telling me that "Everything's gonna b ok.." That i'm gonna do juz fine..i miss her..Ya Allah, aku rindu makku..it is just unbearable..

..and missing her makes me realize that nothing else matter..dun wanna think bout that jerka$$holef@ggot (quote from a friend..ahah)..he doesn't matter in my life..I DO NOT FORGIVE, I DO NOT FORGET..i am currently supressing..i just want to move on..letting go..and now, focus on study..passing my prof exam..this is the only present that i can give my mom..i'm becoming a doctor is a gift for her..

like she always told me..be a doctor..lillahi ta'ala..

i've been missing her so much especially recently..and what makes me write the post today is this note that i read from a friend's facebook..read it..i totally cannot hold my tears reading it..the thing he wrote..it is juz so true..

Surat Dari Anak Mak Yang Dah Tak Nakal...
Mak.....
Terlalu bosan rasa duduk membilang hari.....
Dah hampir sepuluh bulan mak pergi,
Rasanya baru semalam mak peluk kiter kan sejuk syahdu masih terasa lagi nih....

Mak tau tak.......
itu lah pertama kali mak peluk anak mak yang nakal ni sejak kiter dewasa.....
dan itu juga terakhir kali nya.
Emmmm...rupanya mak dah tau mak nak pergi jauh.....
nak tinggal kan anak2 mak...... nak tinggal kan dunia fana ni.......

mak macam dah sedia.....
Seminggu sebelum tu......
mak dah menganyam tikar mengkuang 3 helai.....
Akak kata sampai ke pagi mak anyam tikar tuu....
tanpa rasa mengantuk, tanpa rasa letih......
kakak pun rasa hairan.....
mak tak penah buat gitu.....

pastu mak pasang radio kecil di sebelah mak......
tapi mak seolah2 tak sedar bahawa rancangan radio tu siaran siam .......
kengkadang siaran indonesia ..
mak terus tekun menganyam...
Rupanya tikar yang telah mak siapkan tu di gunakan untuk mengiringi mak ke kuburan...

Pastu mak sapu sampah sekeliling rumah bersih2....
pastu mak jemur karpet-karpet. ..
pastu mak ubahkan sofa ke tempat lain....
mak biarkan ruang tu kosong..
rupanya kat situ jenazah mak diletakkan..

paling menarik sekali mak bgtau kat maner sume duit dan barang kemas mak..
ada kat dalam almari.....
ada kat dalam dalam beg.....
ada dalam ASB.....
ada kat dalam Tabung Haji..
mak cakap tak berapa cukup lagi......
ada kat dalam gulung tikar.....

masa tu mak perasan takk..??
kiter gelak sakan bila mak bgtau duit dalam gulung tikar...
kiter kata mak ni memang pesenn lama laaa...
mak cuma gelak jer...
eeemmm...bahagiaa nya saat ituu..

Mak.....
Hari tu hari sabtu 18/08/1999 pukul 3 petang mak tiba2 sakit perut.....
bila malam tu kiter sampai dari KL.....
mak dah dalam kesakitan.
Akak dan abang kat kampong semua dah pujuk.....
mak tetap takmau pi hospital.... .
dan cuma tinggal giliran kiter sahaja yang belum pujuk..
Mak kata mak takmau duduk dalam hospital.... .
tapi kiter berkeras juga pujukk..
nanti di hospital ada doktor...
ada ubat untuk mak..
kat rumah kami hanya mampu sapu minyak dan urut jer..

Mak tetap tak bersetuju.... ..
mak memang degil..
tak salah, anak mak yang ni pon mengikut perangai mak tu..
Tapi akhirnya bila melihat keadaan mak makin teruk.....
mak sakit perut sampai nak sentuh perut mak pon sakit
kami adik beradik sepakat hantar juga mak ke hospital.... ..

Mak.....
amponkan kami semua...
kami nak mak sehat...
kami sayang mak...
kami tak mau mak sakit...
kami terpaksa juga hantar mak ke hospital....
ampon kan kami yer mak....

Mak.....
Malam itu abang bawa mak ke hospital
dan itu lah pertama dan terakhir kali mak naik kereta kiter...
Masih terbayang betapa ceria dan gembiranya mak,
kiter kata nak beli kereta....
Mak asyik tanya ajer..
cukup ker duitt..
kiter jawab pula...
kalau tak cukup, mak kan banyak duit...
mak gelak ajerr.....

Lepas tu bila kereta kiter sampai....
mak buat kenduri kesyukuran.... . ....
Dan kiter masih ingat lagi...
bila kiter eksiden terlanggar Ah-Chong naik motor.....
Punya la kiter takut....
kiter warning kakak kiter jangan sesekali bgtau kat mak.....
Bila balik sahaja kampong....
kiter cepat-cepat simpan keta dalam garaj.....
Tapi mak perasan juga bumper depan kemek...
mak tanya kenapa...?
Selamba jerr kiter jawab terlangar pokok bunga.....

Mak....
tujuan kiter menipu tu supaya mak tak risau...
Maafkan kiter kerana sampai mak pergi mak tak tau hal sebenar...
mak, kiter menipu mak kan ..
ampon kan kiter.....
Mak.....
Jam 4.30 pagi 19/08 /2006
Bila tiba aja kat hospital.... .
nurse tengah balut mak dengan kain putih.......
mak mesti nampak kiter jatuh terduduk di lantai hospital...
Mesti mak nampak abang cium dahi mak.....
Mesti mak nampak akak baca doa untuk mak....
Mesti mak nampak adik terduduk kat kerusi kat sudut itu...
mesti mak nampak semua tu kann...kann.. .kannn

Mak tau tak....
Pagi tu balik dari hospital jam 5..20 pagi kiter mamandu dalam keadaan separuh sedar...
Adik kat sebelah diam melayan perasann...
Kenangan bersama mak berputar dalam kepala ini....
jalan di depan terasa makin kelam.....
airmata dah tak mampu di tahan....
Masa tu seandainya apa-apa terjadi di jalan itu kiter rela...
Namun alhamdulillah akhirnya kiter sampai juga...
di sebab kan pagi masih awal, jadi jalan tu lenggang..
kosong. ...sekosong hati ini.....
Sepanjang perjalanan terasa kedinginan subuh itu lain benar suasananya.. .....
terasa syahdu dan sayu...dinginnnn. ....

Mak......
Kiter masih ingat lagi....
Kiter baca AlQuran kat tepi mak temankan mak...
Jam 11.00 pagi mak di mandi kan ....
Anak2 mak yang pangku masa mak mandi....
Mak mesti rasa betapa lembut nya kami mengosok seluruh tubuh mak.......
Kiter gosok kaki mak perlahan lahan.....
Mak perasan tak.....?

Makcik yang mandikan mak tu pujuk kiter.....
Dia kata..." dikk....jangan nangis...kalau sayang mak jangan buat gitu...jangan nangis ya.."
Bila makcik tu kata gitu...
lagi laaaa laju airmata ni...
tapi kiter kawal supaya tak menitik atas mak....

Mak.....
Sampai takat ini surat ni kiter tulis.....
kiter nangis ni.....
Ni kat dlm bilik...baru pukul 4.00 pagi....
Takder orang yang bangun lagi.....
kiter dengar nasyid tajuk "anak soleh" kiter sedih...
kiter rindu kat mak....!
Takpa la....
nanti bila kita selesai sembanyang subuh,
kiter baca yassin untuk mak...
mak tunggu ya..!
Mak..
Sebelum muka mak di tutup buat selamanya... .
Semua anak2 mak mengelilingi mak...
menatap wajah mak buat kali terakhir....
Semua orang kata mak seolah2 senyum aja....
Mak rasa tak....
masa tu kiter sentuh dahi mak....
kiter rasa sejukkkk sangat dahi makk......
Kiter tak mampu nak cium mak...
kiter tak daya....
kiter tuliskan kalimah tauhid kat dahi mak dengan air mawar...
Airmata kiter tak boleh tahan....
Mak mesti ingat kan yang anak mak ni jadi imam solat jenazah untuk mak...
tapi kite suruh tok imam bacakan doa sebab kite sebak.....

Jam 12 tengahari mak diusung keluar dari rumah....
Akak pula dah terkulai dlm pelukan makcik...
badan akak terasa panas...
makk...
anak mak yang seorang tu demam....

Mak tauu...
cuma akak sorang saja anak mak yang tak mengiringi mak ke tanah perkuburan.. .
Mak.....
Hari2 ku lalui tanpa kewujudan mak lagi....
Begitu terasa kehilangan mak...
boleh kata setiap malam selepas maghrib anak mak ini berendam airmata...
Dan sampai satu tahap....
masa tu malam jumaat selepas maghrib....
Selepas kiter baca yassin ngan kawan-kawan. ....
entah kenapa biler kat bilik kiter keluarkan gambar2 mak pastu apa lagi...
semakin kiter tenung terasa semakin sayu...
tangisan tak dapat dibendung...

Mak tauu...
kiter cuba bertahan...
memujuk diri sendiri tapi tak juga reda...
Kiter rasa nak telefon mak.....
nak cakap dengan mak.....
anak mak yang ni dah tak betul kan ..?
Dan akhirnya dalam sedu sedan itu kiter telefon kampong......
Kiter cakap dengan kakak..kiter nangis lagi...
Puas la kakak memujuk kiter...
Akak kata..." tak baik laa nangis aje..doa lah untuk mak.."
Dan akhirnya akak juga nangis.....

Mak tau tak..
di saat itu kerinduan terasa menusuk sehingga ke hulu hati...
rasa nyilu sangat...
menusuk-nusuk sehingga terasa begitu sakit dalam dada ni....
Sampai sekarang bila kerinduan itu menjelma....
hanya sedekah al-fatihah kiter berikan.....

Mak....
cukup la sampai sini dulu....
kawan kiter dah ketuk pintu bilik tu....
kejap lagi kami nak pergi solat subuh kat masjid...
selalunya, kiter yang bawak mak naik motor kan ....
kali ni kiter jalan kaki dengan kawan pulak...
esok kiter ingat nak tulis surat kat ayah pula....
Mula2 kiter tak tau nak hantar mana surat nih......
pastu kawan kiter bgtau...
simpan je buat kenangan..
Kiter cuma tau alamat ni aje...
Takper yer mak...k
Kiter kasi orang lain baca....
Kiter stop dulu...
sebab kawan kiter dah lama tunggu tu...
akhir kata untuk mak,
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH
dan jutaan terima kasih kerana membesarkan kiter...
memberi seluruh kasih sayang dari kecil sampai masuk sekolah..
sampai masuk univesiti... .
sampai kiter boleh rase naik kapal terbang...
boleh rasa duduk kat negara orang...
sampai akhir hayat ini jasa mak tak akan mampu kiter balas..

Sekian terima kasih

p/s: i rili cried like a baby when reading this note..i can relate to it..some of it is my own experience..i din cry when my mom's gone..juz cried one to two tears..then i supressed my feeling..i have a funeral to arrange, and i need all the strength cause all my family is grieving, and ther's only me..i grief only a year later..it's a bit delayed..but for me i am being strong for everyone..

ya ALLAH ya Tuhan kami, ampunilah dosa kedua ibu bapa kami dan sayangilah mereka sepertimana mereka menyayangi kami ketika kami kecil..aamiiiin..alFatihah k makku..mak, if only u knew..

..staind-outside,,

2009-04-17T05:36:00.000-07:00

a song by staind-OUTSIDE

And you, bring me to my knees
Again
All the times,
That I could beg you please-
In vain
All the times
That I felt insecure
For you
And I leave
My burdens at the door

But I'm on the outside
And I'm looking in
I can see through you
See your true colors
'Cause inside you're ugly
You're ugly like me
I can see through you
See to the real you

All this time
That I felt like this won't end
was for you
And I taste
What I could never have
was from you
All those times
That I've tried
My intentions
Were full of pride
And I waste
More time than anyone

But I'm on the outside
And I'm looking in
I can see through you
See your true colors
'Cause inside you're ugly
You're ugly like me
I can see through you
See to the real you

All the times
That I've cried
All this wasted
It's all inside
And I feel
All this pain
Stuffed it down
It's back again
And I lie
Here in bed
All alone
I can't mend
And I feel
Tomorrow will be okay

But I'm on the outside
And I'm looking in
I can see through you
See your true colors
'Cause inside you're ugly
You're ugly like me
I can see through you
See to the real you

..n ther's a story about..ya duhal sebabnya..

2009-04-10T18:42:00.000-07:00

ha..ha..haha..hahahahaha..y did kutner left the show? head to this address..u will know why..and it is quite a surprise also..ha hahaha..hahahaha..

"kenak kal penn left the show?"

so basically he is working in white house..so he will put his acting carrier on hold..wait..not on hold..he's gonna stop acting altogethe..huhu..huhu..no more kutner is one thing..but harold and kumar? gosh, that is a lost..!! and yeah..according to Penn, those are his legs in the scene where thirteen and foreman found his body..haha..nice piece of information..

so that's it..like the old saying says, life's short..so, live it to the fullest..and be happy..(a thing that i fail to do these days..ok, i'll try..my guardian angel wouldn't want me to be sad, rite?)

KUTNER DIED? REALLY?

2009-04-10T10:35:00.000-07:00

no..no post..just, i like him..i like him as kumar..and as kutner..and he died..and now he's gone..

..like..REALLY? i am not prepared..din watch the promos, read the reviews..it's a total surprise..sigh..not the kind of expected feeling when edie died (did she?) when watching desperate housewives..well, there are rumours that she's leaving the show..so i am prepared..but kutner? can't wait how they are going to fire taub and thirteen (thirteen really is easy on the eyes..really, and i do love her eyes..o wait, mawas, do not get me wrong..i am not interested in you.. ;p)

..hmm..i am gonna read books for this two days..no, i am not gonna read kumar, clark, or davidson..just some cecilia ahern or maybe sophie kinsella..or dan brown....
speaking of which, where did i put my angels and demons? they say it is going to be in cinema soon..need to refresh my mind bout what it's all about..love dan brown..he is a genius (no, do not be fooled by the movie, his writing is far more genius)

ishks..lapar ehs..stat la lapa alu cranky tok..sapa nak ku manas ku tok o..?aok ada sorang..k, later..gotta kill someone..need his meat..nyam.. :thumbs:

..n ther's a story about me..trying to write..

2009-02-28T00:25:00.000-08:00

i kno that i dun rili kno how to write..i'm quite comfortable to voice out what i think but not to the level to write anything serious..but i do have ideas bout stories..so, this is a short story i wanna shared with everyone..it's juz a draft..an idea that popped up and it's been bothering my head since lasnite..so i write it..do read and please give comments..tq :)

i have a friend

she's first in love when she was 20 years old..seems like she found her true happiness..but she knew she can't be with this man..ther's a barrier between them..a barrier of great wall of china..no, it's more than that..and ther's nothing that she can do..the wall is on his side..he is the only one who can break it..so, they split up..however remain friends..as broken as she was, life has to go on..
now and then, my fren would go from one guy to another.. sometimes, totally the wrong guy..the one that wanted her for all the wrong reason..espceally with the skin she's in..sometimes juz good enough to make her laugh..a joker him was..she did this juz to forget her first love..she hurt herself along the way..rili hurt herself..as to forget her first love..as they are now stay fren, she would go to her first love every time she had her heart broken..every single problem she had she somehow come back to the first man she loved..even when he did not want her..anymore..then she realize..he did not want her..she..tried to run..and he did not let her..

many years later, after been single for many years, growing a carrier, when she thought her heart was fully recovered, she met a new guy..he is nice to her..she's smiling..she do believe that this guy is a sign she had forgotten her first love..that she finally can move on..for real..

she arranged a dinner..to introduce him to her friends..the friends are so happy..finally she moved on..

"hello my frens, this is my fiance, eric.."

the diner room suddenly goes to silence..there's an awkward silence..everybody look at each other..puzzled.."is this a joke?" is the question everybody asked themselves..

the dinner went on awkwardly..eric tried to lift up the room..thinking that he was the problem causing the awkwardness..the more he talked the more the room filled with puzzles..unanswered questions filled their head..

he looks like him..eric, he looks like her first love that she tried really hard to forget..he talked like him..with the same round eyes, and smiles the sweetest smile that u can't forget..

she fall to her first love again..the one that she tried hardly to forget..but she juz fall rite back into it..

..now she did not know what to feel..

..n ther's a story bout when the time comes..

2009-02-24T02:58:00.001-08:00

i am in love~ i had my first "date" with him..wait? will it b too much to ask him on another date tonite? act i juz wanna watch benjamin button~~

err..i sound like i'm rushing things rite? but hey, it's near to the beginning of that cycle..and for those who knows me....it's totally ~~hunting tyme~~ ahakss..

no..not that i ever get a catch..it's juz a metaphore..or izit....? :P

..n ther's a story bout the love package that i received..

2009-02-19T21:38:00.000-08:00

like i told u before, i've been blessed with lots..and lotsa fren..and juznow i received a love package from another fren of mine, nana..thx a bunch nana ;o)

..n ther's a story bout the test i did on mukabuku wink

2009-02-16T05:45:00.000-08:00

sbb boring I did this two test..the first one a question we owez ask ourselves- "What's wrong with you?" The other one, "What Letter Does Your Soulmate's Name Start With?" Check it out..

quiz one..

What's wrong with you?

Result: Not Completely Human
Sorry, but there's something about you that's not quite human. Maybe it has something to do with the full moon or something.

Let's look on the bright side of this for a minute -- we mean, it's not completely bad. You probably have a great killer instincts and a bitchin' sense of smell. Those sorts of things will come in handy to you on dark nights and won't necessarily trigger any suspicion from the ASPCA. Still, don't be surprised if you wake up one morning to find that your body has grown in monstrous ways, and suddenly there's hair where there wasn't hair before. (Of course, it could just be a late spurt of puberty.)

What's wrong wimme..? I am not even human...? aiks..?

quiz 2:

What Letter Does Your Soulmate's Name Start With?

Result: The Letter C
Possibly (but not limited to) Caden, Charles, Caitlin, Caleb, Cameron or Candace.

Bonus fortunes:
You will meet at: college.
Your first date will be at: Chili's.
The band that plays at your wedding will be: Color Me Badd.
Instead of children, you will have: cats.

y? o y? o y?[pelu aku cayak?

..n ther'a a story of friendships..

2009-02-07T04:45:00.000-08:00

someone gave me this..

i am lucky..my life has been blessed by the many wonderful friends in it..i am one lucky girl..thanx all my frens.. :)

..n ther’s the story of an early xmas..

2009-02-05T02:44:00.001-08:00

Christmas comes early..and it comes in the form of….

….dark choco..owh, I love dark choco..n my guardian angel gave me these..he takes care of me..laugh wimme..well, try to stop my immature inconsolable tears..he's wimme through thick and thin..happy for me..sad wimme..shared my hobby of letting go the most awesome shit..err..literally..hmm..sound gross..whatever..and he flew to me these dark choco..nyamnyam..makseh..makseh..mek suka suma coklet ya.. ;o)

..n ther's a story bout my guardian angel chapter II..

2009-02-02T05:16:00.000-08:00

..i am very..very..very..happy..thank u my guardian angel..

..n ther's a story bout ..homesick..

2009-01-17T06:33:00.000-08:00

i thot i'm a big gurl liao..thot i wud be ok staying away from hous..but i am stil my daddy's lil gurl..and i miss home..

p/s: i have exam in two days time..for a week..pray for me and my fren k? hopfuly ol of us are gonna pass all our papers..aamiiin..

..n ther's a story bout banjir di kampung kami

2009-01-12T01:28:00.000-08:00

i have nothing to say..i juz wanna post pictures..

and my car..owh my beloved car dah tenggelam..no pics of my drowning car..juz pics after i washed it which is veliveli tiring..huhu..

more banjir picture

..n ther's a story bout my catuday

2009-01-11T08:57:00.000-08:00

i've been writing this sometime ago but seems to only post it recently..but i need to post this..coz it spelled V for V.I.C.T.O.R.Y

my saturday..

a typical saturday for me..wake up and ready for group discussion..having discusssion until late in the afternoon, and going home exhausted and sleep till morning..and there goes my saturday..

however, yesterday was an eventful saturday..a series of full-of obstacles event..followed by the lucky events..it is such a hactic day..such a hactic day..

started juz like any other saturday morning..getting ready to class..it's raining............

my driving skills totally deteriorate on a rainy day..a slippery road with blurrred vision drives my nerve to a total wreck..my anxiety takes over me..i rili have to concentrate on my breathing and my driving..my main aim is to stay alive, and arrive to my destination safely..

no..that's not the story for today..
.
.
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watched fast and furious 4 with fitz and azrine..yurp..i love this movie..all four of them..it is a movie that keeps my adrenaline pumping all through the movie..the excitement..argh..i love that feeling..i just love vin diesel..him and the biceps..and triceps..haha..that cycle again..watch out guys..

okai..back to the real story..hmm..yea...here goes..we lasminute plan everything..like owez..haha..after lunch sponsored by belated-bedde-boi rasid @ sate ceko, went directly to star we are deciding to buy either 4 o'clock show or 5 o'clock show..the 4 o'clock show is almost full..there is only one set of three free seats in D section.. (that's almost too near to the screen)..so we switch to 5 o'clock show and tadaaaa...lots of free seats..and it is in theatre three..but..azrine and fitz both had other plans in later that evening..so we switch back to 4 o'clock shows juz to find the one and only available three-seats had gone..someone else had bought ticket for one (u're so pathetic..watching movie all by urself..err..ok..u're not..but i am angry with u..so, i had to go fire someone..huhu)..ok..back to the story..and now we hav to watch the 5 o'clock shows..by hook or by crook..owh i hate that guy (is he really a he?)

..then..knowing we hav exactly one and half hour to kill, we decided to spend it to the nearest place..the archery arcade..situated juz below star cineplex at level 8..

..the lift aren't working..so we used the stairs..we open the door..and guess what we found?

carparks...!!! surprise? NO!! that's what medan pelita all is..medan kereta as they call it is..and there's a homeless (possibly mentally ill) fella sleeping on the floor..dissapointed, we went back to fitz's car and we went bowling..

looking for parking..riverside's parking is full..so we went to standard chrated's parking space..almost full..huhu..almost get a space but too late..had to pass that one..but luckily we get another parking..so walking to riverside's bowl place, we met lots and i mean a LOT of young teenagers lepakking around..and they dressed up in the most ridicoulous outfit, for heaven's sake!!! the three of us wondered how fool they look like..iyeww..and how luckily we never go through that "wannabes" teenage phase..huhu..

..and so we go bought socks..mine was 99 cents..haha..veli cheap ho..?and we went to the elevator..and there are a lot..and i mean a LOT of people waiting for it..deciding it's better for us to take stairs, but then it's at level 5 and we are at UG level..that wud be 7 stairs to climb..no, no, no, no no..it's a total no,no..

and so we wait..ding..!! the elevator's door open..luckily it is almost full, so the other millions of people (ok..i totally exagerrated that..juz around 8 ppl ;p) who came as a group, do not want to be separated..so we took the elevator ride to level 5..

..so..we played bowling..

okla..okla..long post..long post..tl;dr..the main point of this post is....

I BEAT THE GUYS IN BOWLING!!!

HA HA HA HA~~

that's all..rilli boost my self esteem..i kno..i kno..azrine wud probably blame the ball..not suitable la..but, the main point is again..

I BEAT YOU GUYS IN BOWLING!!!

HA HA HA HA~~

that's all..

..n ther's a story bout twilight~

2009-01-06T21:05:00.002-08:00

i've watched this movie..not bad..quite nice actually..i've drawn to watch it in the first place because of the actor..i know, superficial right? he is the guy i like in Harry Potter..cedric..but after watching this movie and got a few review that says the book are way better..who does not like vampire, rite..? ;P

The complete series are here:

01-Twilight

02-New Moon

03-Eclipse

04-Breaking Dawn

it is password protected..if u want the password gimme your email and i shall email you the password.. :)

..n ther's a story bout it is just a physical attraction..

2009-01-06T01:25:00.000-08:00

hmm..

no way i am in love

nya angit bah..

..n ther's a story bout 10 reasons why you should date a doctor!!

2009-01-04T08:52:00.000-08:00

10 reasons why you should date a doctor!!

1. The stethoscope
2. They can give you the gift of "missing them" because they are always at work
3. They can give you a free medical consultation
4.You save yourself the embarrassment of going to a doctor with a water infection!!
5. They are smart!!
6. They know their anatomy well (know what works and where)
7. They are heavy weight party people in the weekend
8. Let's play doctor!!
9. They are well trained to listen.
10. They know how you feel, or at least pretend to!!

ok!!! so here are some new ones i came up with!!!!

10.1 They always have a strange new story to tell.
10.2 They offer you a tissue when you feel like crying (it is a reflex).
10.3 They can stay up all night if you want them to.
10.4 They can guide you in the gym.
10.5 Money!!! (Although they work long hours for it)
10.6 Free medical samples!!
10.7 They are unshockable!!!
10.8 They know what you want to hear and say it!!
10.9 They always try to dress nice!!
10.10 They are trained in breaking bad news in a nice way.

2009 ones!! came up with these after a seven day oncall stretch!!

10.001. They agree to whatever you say coz they cannot be bothered to argue.
10.002. They are faithful! (not easy to find someone so they might as well hold on to what they have).
10.003. They have a short attention span! (you can get away with almost anything).
10.004 They double as DIY experts!!
10.005 They can control their facial expression! so they will always be pleasant infront of the in-laws!!
10.006 They have access to gloves!! and have expertise in washing any stain out!!
10.007 They come in handy when you need a mobile task organiser..
10.008 They are trained to follow instructions with flawless accuracy!!
10.009 they usually can't express emotions so u end up with presents instead!
10.0010 they are open to expirementation as long as you can provide evidence to support the new technique!!

You know you're a doctor when!!

1. You wake up at 6am on a weekend although you don't have work.
2. A sound of a van reversing with a beep makes you look for a phone number.
3. You feel there is something wrong if you don't have an exam coming up.
4. Can’t relax
5. Can wiz through a 300 page book in a day
6. Are sexually charged for no reason you can pinpoint!!
7. Watch scrubs and laugh at yourself.
8. Use the phrase "I am a doctor" to get away with something.
9. You are always tiered.
10. When you keep on asking for stuff that doesn't get done.
11. When you write more than a thousand words a day.
12. When you have no privacy.
13. When you look at a naked person on the beach and the first thing you notice is their appendectomy scar.
14. If you thought you have a disease you are studying about.
15. if you feel like your over worked and under paid.
16. If people call you doctor.
17. You find yourself always carrying a pen even if you're on a night out.
18. When you forget to have a haircut.
19. cannula please!!!!
20. Are expected to be in two places at the same time.
21. Are expected to know everything.
22. Are called in the middle of the night to sign a piece of paper.
23. Are dragged to the end of the world to talk to someone.
24. Are expected to smile everyday.
25. Don't understand what people mean when they talk about the "hospital smell".
26. When you can see someone's guts and think about food.
27. When you are not disgusted by the previous sentence.
28. If you can't remember what you ate they day before! but still manage to remember the blood results of every single patient you have.
29. You are always thinking about the next job.
30. Are reading this sentence!!!
31. You think green is a cool color to wear!!
32. You can sleep ( on command) on any surface, at any hour of the day!!
33. Can't spell.
34.when you find yourself dragged into a competition like a fly to a glowing light.
35.you are as mature about losing as a baby! although you hide it really well!!
36. are still reading this!! goddamn!!
37. you know how to make a very drunk person wake up in two moves or less.
38. have no sense of time, place, or matter!
39. are anal!
40. you always have something to complain about!!!

credit to:
http://www.facebook.com/group.php?gid=4802657634

they post this for fun..i juz read first 3 sentence, then i decided to post it here..and somehow i can't relate mysef..err..am i not in the community? huhu..

..n ther's a story bout a story bout a story bout a story.......

2009-01-04T08:02:00.000-08:00

i went to mph two days ago..then i came across a book..n somehow it caught my eyes..it's a book by Sophie Kinsella titled Remember Me..

this is the synopsis
Synopsis

From Kinsella (Shopaholic & Baby, 2007, etc.), a rags-to-riches fable with a twist.Self-proclaimed "sucker" Lexi Smart has a thankless job and a boyfriend known as "Loser Dave." When the book opens, our plucky-in-spite-of-it-all heroine is wrapping up a night out with gal pals in London. Struggling to find a taxi in the rain to take her home, Lexi slips on the slick pavement and wakes up with retrograde amnesia three years later. Seems Lexi has been busy in recent years - too bad she remembers none of it. When she opens her eyes, she's in a first-class hospital room, the victim, doctors say, of a car wreck in her Mercedes. No longer a working-class drone, Lexi now has a Louis Vuitton handbag, and her previously humdrum body is toned and tanned. As she switches into freak-out mode, her sister notifies Lexi that she is also married - to a square-jawed, hunky millionaire. Talk about getting lucky! Hilarity ensues as Lexi attempts to reclaim her past and negotiate her dazzling present, while contemplating an even more wondrous romance with a black-jeans-clad architect. That Lexi discovers that her transformation from worker to boss turned her from good buddy to bitch adds a bit of morality-tale vinegar to this sugar-shock tale.Cute.
I was planning to buy it, but currently it isn't available yet..but i hav the sofcopy here..
If u are not planning to buy it, u can get it from..

http://rapidshare.com/files/101612704/Remember_Me_-_Sophie_Kinsella.doc.html

a note of concern...
p/s: this is a microsoft office word document..it can be change by the person who uploaded it..so i can't verify the originality of the writing..huhu..but if anyone had the pdf file that can be shared here, please do so..tq :)
i will rite about the reviews later..after i read it..ok guys?

..n ther's a story of tWo weeks to exam..

2009-01-04T03:35:00.000-08:00

surgery exam in tWo weeks time..i wasn't ready for it..i hate exam..it's like unsuccessful suicidal attempt..killing oneself juz to survive and again to be killed the next time..but, i am trying my best to survive..not for me..for people around me..who support me..

a friend introduced me today to star wars..she's a die-hard-fan of star wars..actually

..n ther's a story bout..i love this shoes part tWo

2008-12-28T08:43:00.000-08:00

this is from dior..owh i love this shoes..currently i am so into gladiators and boots..and if the shoes is a hybrid from those two, i would die for it..owh my, owh my..i rili need to have this pair of shoes..hu~

..n ther’s the story of Ma’al Hijrah

2008-12-28T04:21:00.001-08:00

Doa Awal Tahun & Doa Akhir Tahun

Barangsiapa yang membaca doa awal tahun ini, insya Allah dirinya akan terpelihara daripada gangguan dan godaan syaitan di sepanjang tahun tersebut.

Doa Awal Tahun:

Maksudnya:

Allah SWT berselawat ke atas penghulu kami Muhammad SAW, ahli keluarga dan sahabat-sahabat baginda dan kesejahteraan ke atas mereka.

Wahai Tuhan, Engkaulah yang kekal abadi, yang qadim. yang awal dan ke atas kelebihanMu yang besar dan kemurahanMu yang melimpah dan ini adalah tahun baru yang telah muncul di hadapan kami. Kami memohon pemeliharaan dariMu di sepanjang tahun ini dari syaitan dan pembantu-pembantunya dan tentera-tenteranya dan juga pertolongan terhadap diri yang diperintahkan melakukan kejahatan dan usaha yang mendekatkanku kepadaMu Wahai Tuhan Yang Maha Agung dan Maha Mulia.

Wahai Tuhan Yang Maha pengasih dari mereka yang mengasihi dan Allah berselawat ke atas penghulu kami Muhammad. Nabi yang ummi dan ke atas ahli keluarga dan sahabat-sahabatnya dan kesejahteraan ke atas mereka.

Barangsiapa yang membaca doa akhir tahun ini, maka syaitan akan berkata:
"Hampalah kami di sepanjang tahun ini".

Doa Akhir Tahun:

Maksudnya:

Allah SWT berselawat ke atas penghulu kami Muhammad SAW, ahli keluarga dan sahabat-sahabat baginda dan kesejahteraan ke atas mereka.

Wahai Tuhan, apa yang telah aku lakukan dalam tahun ini daripada perkara-perkara yang Engkau tegah daripada aku melakukannya dan aku belum bertaubat daripadanya. Sedangkan Engkau tidak redha dan tidak melupakannya. Dan aku telah melakukannya di dalam keadaan di mana Engkau berupaya untuk menghukumku, tetapi Engkau mengilhamkanku dengan taubat selepas keberanianku melakukan dosa-dosa itu semuanya. Sesungguhnya aku memohon keampunanMu, maka ampunilah aku. Dan tidaklah aku melakukan yang demikian daripada apa yang Engkau redhainya dan Engkau menjanjikanku dengan pahala atas yang sedemikian itu. Maka aku memohon kepadaMu.

Wahai Tuhan! Wahai yang Maha Pemurah! Wahai Yang Maha Agung dan wahai Yang Maha Mulia agar Engkau menerima taubat itu dariku dan janganlah Engkau menghampakan harapanku kepadaMu Wahai Yang Maha Pemurah. Dan Allah berselawat ke atas penghulu kami Muhammad, ke atas ahli keluarga dan sahabat-sahabatnya dan mengurniakan kesejahteraan ke atas mereka.

..n ther's a story bout..i love this shoes

2008-12-27T05:49:00.000-08:00

OWH AIM GEE,
u've gotta c katy perry's new clip of "thinking of you"
y? a few reasons
1. she's hot in this vid
2. well, ther's a hot scene of her in this vid
3. ther r two hot guys in this vid
4. for kyle xy's fan..simply said, he's in the vid
5. and as for me..

i love her shoes !!!

check it out if u don believe me..i where can i find these shoes? huhu..i am so in love with this shoes..
oMG!!